Sick & Tired of being Sick & Tired.
Wednesday, June 15, 2016
Well this last week has been a rough one. For some reason after losing an EPIC 5.5 pounds after my first week, I fell into a deep depression. I cried over everything, I felt worthless, I wanted to just disappear from life for awhile. Of course this caused my eating to skyrocket and my tracking became non existent. Saturday I woke up feeling better after finding a nice outfit to wear to my husband's cousin's wedding and was feeling really pretty.
Unfortunately our car broke down halfway to the wedding. Thankfully my FIL came to our rescue and helped us get the car fixed. It was the alternator so close to $400.00 later we were back on the road. We made it to the reception and it was nice to see everyone...even if my hair did look like I just was in a wind tunnel! Money has been tight for awhile now so this did not really help the situation and of course I was already pretty down so tears were shed!
Sunday I woke up to news of the Orlando shooting. I have a HS friend who used to manage the nightclub where it happened and even though he is now in Real Estate, he goes back to guest bartend quite a bit. Thankfully he was not there that night and is safe but he lost alot of good friends and it really hit close to home for me.
Needless to say it's been a rough one! But I also have noticed how hard it is for me to just walk around. My knees are aching and my ankles are hurting. I am so tired of being out of breath and outgrowing my clothes. I am not too big for my "FAT" clothes. Something has to give! I just don't know what my problem is! I know what I need to do, I do it for a week or so and then it's like I give up again. Well I am back to it again.
I gained back 3.5 pounds of what I lost last week but am still down 2 pounds and I am going to focus on that to keep me grounded. I can still lose the 25 pounds by the end of the summer..I just have to really work hard and commit. This is a lifelong commitment...and I need to get that through my thick skull! I want my son to learn to be healthy!
Goals for the week:
2. Meal plan!
3. Clean out kitchen cupboards and fridge to make room for new fresh healthy food.
4. Workout 3x