Venting is healthy
Friday, June 03, 2016
I watch my cousins kids at least 3 times a week. Yesterday I got my schedule for the next 3 months. Her and her husband are going to 3 concerts so I get the girls those nights. One of the concerts are on a Wednesday, one of the days I watch them, which means I'll have the girls, 4 months old and 3 year old, from 7am to about 11pm. 16 HOURS!!!
My cousin knows I dont get out since I take care of my grandma and the fact that I have no friends. She also knows that I like to listen to Korn, Marilyn Manson, and Slipknot. No Im not a goth metal head, I like all music but country (but I like bluegrass) and jazz. I found out earlier that 2 of the concerts she is going to has those 3 in them.
At first I was pissed and now Im just depressed. I watch her kids all the time and I dont get to do a lot of my housework and yard work because I watch those kids. Now my weekends are full of catching up on work. Since my weekends are now busy I cant go out to the lake to see my grandparents. I couldnt go out there for Memorial Day for the cook out because of housework and yard work. So Im pretty much saying that she could have asked me if I wanted to go since I watch her kids for her while shes at work, at a drs apt, and even days when she has a lot of housework to do. At least have it be a THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME AND MY GIRLS gift.
She knows that watching my grandma is stressful, dementia, and that I have no social life. Before we were best friends that would do stuff and now all I feel like to her is her babysitter.