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Wednesday, May 04, 2016

It's been 2 years since I wrote a blog here! Gee! emoticon Well no time like the present to begin again. A lot of things have been going on with me. A lot of changes. This year has put me into a tail spin but I'm staying steady as I can, I come back when I fall. At the beginning of the year, I almost lost my mom. She got very sick and was in the hospital for a month, she almost died. She is still not home (at a skilled nursing center) but she is doing so much better and has a good attitude. We had a couple of cancer scares with her and had a lot of people praying for her to find out that there was no cancer, everything that presented as cancerous tumors were gone! Praise God!
Within the last month, I found out I was pregnant. My husband and I were very happy about it but a few weeks ago I lost the baby, so I am still dealing with the emotions and all that goes with that. Previous to that I had been moving out of the the place I lived with a family I lived with for 15 years. They were un-supportive of my marriage, and of me having a child and I really needed to move out and be with my husband (complicated story) So I was able to get out of a negative situation but lost a friend because of it. Her choice, not mine. I still have emotional damage from that situation that I'm trying to heal from as well.
It's been 3 weeks since the miscarriage and I'm actually feeling good, physically. When I discovered I was pregnant I decided to seek that as an opportunity to get healthier. So my mind has been set toward a healthier life but after I lost it, I kind of just wanted to eat whatever I wanted. I know I've gained weight and even though I'm not as big as I was in the past, I still need to lose and get back in better shape. Now that I have moved into the apartments with my sister and husband, there is a gym available to work out in. So I took the opportunity today, which really felt good.
I'm so dumb, lol, I only say that because I totally forget how good it feels to get up and move my body! I need to keep remembering that. I need to get back to that place where I am addicted to exercise again. And the biggest thing I need to do, when I get back to where I was, 209, size 15 jeans (which was skinny for me!) DO NOT TAKE IT FOR GRANTED!!! Back then I knew I lost, I knew I looked better, felt healthier and such, but I didn't take it as seriously as I should have. I didn't HOLD ONTO it. I let it go...
I could sit here and be sad about it, beat myself up for it and say I'll never get back there, but no. NO!! I want it back, and I'm TAKING IT BACK!!! emoticon
So, I'm hitting this button

Here I go.....
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  • JIBBIE49
    1273 days ago
    emoticon Kim! I'm so sorry you suffered a miscarriage and that your mom has been so sick. Please know that I'm keeping you both in my prayers and thoughts. You have been through so much and I'm so proud of you for not giving up on yourself. You are a very strong person. It's wonderful to have a returning member with a positive outlook. There is no doubt in my mind that you will reach every goal you are striving to achieve! I'm cheering you on! You ROCK!

    ~ Monika ~ emoticon
    1316 days ago
    I love your post and your attitude. I added you as a friend. Feel free to do the same
    1317 days ago
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