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Life - on life's terms

Wednesday, May 04, 2016

Life is good. I just got back from a mini vacation. I had a great time. I enjoyed some great things I love and came home feeling rejuvenated. I have some great little things planned for this summer... concerts, ball games, road trips, family birthdays and outings... lot's to look forward to. Lot's of things I love with people I love - it doesn't get much better than that!

Today, it's a gloomy day. It's raining and gray. I just found out a person I know committed suicide. His family unplugged the life support last night. I am so sad. He left behind a young son and some dear friends who truly were routing for him to rally through this rough patch of life.

Sometimes life is hard. We all go through things that are shattering. We all have times when we feel we just can't go on. We all have our hearts broken. We all walk through dark valleys. We will each experience a time when life will bring us to our knees. I have friends who say God won't give you more than you can handle. At times like this, I know that he does. I believe it is during those times that we are asked to humble ourselves and intercede for help - from family, friends, complete strangers and our God.

I have learned from experience that life can change in an instant. We can go from riding that pink cloud to a dark, black place where we feel we will never escape and see the light again. I also know that the light ALWAYS returns. I have learned when the light returns we emerge a changed person.

I remember days when I couldn't wait for my life to end, when the thought of one more day brought pain and agony. Today I cherish my life and when the end comes, it will be far too soon!

To those struggling, never give up. You are loved more than you will ever know. You are important. You have a purpose. You matter.

So on this gloomy, rainy night I will go meet this man's family as they come to take his body home. I will embrace them, share with them some of the happy times and pray that they will find the strength to hold on until the light returns to their lives.

Feeling extremely sad, but fortunate.
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  • L*I*T*A*
    so sorry to hear about the loss of your friend........
    sending positive thoughts and prayers....

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    1875 days ago
    Sorry isn't much of a word, sometimes. Hold on tight.
    1876 days ago
  • LSIG14
    emoticon emoticon My thought and prayers are with you as you go through this valley with the family of this young man! May they see the light through your eyes and hold on until they are filled once again! I am so glad that you had your mini-vacation to hold you up through the dark days!
    1876 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13423552
    So sorry to read this blog Barb and so sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. I'm so sorry that he got to such a dark place and could not see any other way out. I'm glad that you are in a place where you think the end will be far too soon and I sure hope that it is a long ways off. You have a lot of people in your life who would miss you too much and you enjoy life too much. I'm glad you will be there for your friend's family, I know they will appreciate the support - even if they are not able to show it right now. Thinking of you and sending positive energy.
    1877 days ago
  • BERRY4
    What a difficult mix of items & events. emoticon
    A couple of years back, I sat w/ my brother as he shared his dark moments about wanting to end the pain. He was telling me things I should know about when he was gone. With tears in my eyes, I asked if he would call me before he hurt himself forever. I shared that I needed to know whether I had done enough to be there & be helpful when he needed it. (He will be 50 this summer.)

    I don't know what people do without knowing that God is in control and will NEVER leave us nor forsake us. I know...sometimes the darkness fills up all the space.

    Wishing you strength as you reach out to those in need of support.
    1877 days ago
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