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Trying to get my ducks in a row

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

I have a scheduled appointment with an orthopedist for tomorrow to see about knee surgery at the end of May. I have a scheduled appt with my sleep and breathing doctor during the second week of May because I will need surgical clearance, and also with my psychiatrist that week. I am really anxious about a number of things so I am trying to meet with a new psychologist ASAP to help me. I have tears and fears and numerous areas of concern. I'm drowning in clutter and I've been working on it, but it's an almost overwhelming task. We have a dog and a cat. The dog is a rescue and we must keep him because we both love him, however I am having so much trouble with seemingly everything that caring for our animals is causing me a lot of stress. Two of our grands are allergic to our cat. She is shedding everywhere, and the grands get itchy watery eyes when they are here. She is semi-feral and won't let us pick her up or hold her. She scratched both my husband and me twice last week when we tried to put her in a crate to take to the vet for her shots which are past due. We can't catch her because of our painful knees and her craftiness. She is an inside/outside cat and she and the dog have a love/hate relationship which causes me stress. She mothers him, and he nips at her ears and chases her. He plays too rough. I am having enough trouble taking care of Milo, the dog, and the two of them are too much. I want to send her to a farm where her sisters live or to another farm where she would be with other barn cats, and I'm feeling guilty about it and grieving at the decision I've made to give her away the same time.

Okay, I've made some phone calls and things are falling into place... I've stopped seeing my situation as an out and out catastrophe. (sigh) But my shoulders are still tense and I'm anxious, but in control. I'm exhausted from not getting enough sleep last night, but managing to reach out to take care of things that need to be done today, and planning for tomorrow.
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    BREATHE. Sometimes that's all you can manage, and that's ok. You don't have to do it all, you do what you can and you learn to let it be enough. Not easy, but it can be done. Just remember-BREATHE! You've got this.
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    Hard as it is, sometimes the best thing for the pet is to be at a different place than your place. Some animals just don't mix and it's miserable for the pet owner AND for the pets. Good for you for stepping back from how YOU feel and looking at what is really best for your pets.
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    ((((HUGS)))) and good luck.
    1873 days ago
    I understand the pressure you seem to have because of the fur babies you have rescued. I also know that you are doing a disservice to them if you can't care for them 100%. If it isn't working out, it is what it is. It isn't your fault. Putting a dog with a cat can and cannot work no matter how much you try to make a go at it. If the cat is part feral, then the cat really isn't a family cat, is she/he? And the dog? If you feel pressure caring for the doggie, not walking him and you are extremely anxious, then maybe he needs a new home too. As you know, caring for animals is a commitment. I hope you find a solution to your dilemma and find peace in your choice. Best of luck my dear friend, fredie
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