I had been doing so well until last weekend. No Easter candy or anything like that, it's just that I've been grazing. Mainly at night. It's just been me, not wanting to follow any kind of structure. And that made the scales jump up to an all time high. My clothes don't fit. I can't stand looking at pictures on facebook of my memories and seeing how fit and trim I looked just a year ago.
I have to figure out a way to keep motivated and get back on track. I have to realize it's going to take time and the first thing I need to do is to get track of my eating moments. I'm still struggling with the habit of night eating. I went several nights not getting up and eating and my sleep was better. So going to write out my eating moments for today and stick with it. It will be hard, but I can do this.
On a good note, the weather is turning nicer and I'm able to spend more time outside. Today's run will be outside and I'm super excited about that. My one saving grace is that I've kept up with my exercise program. If I hadn't done that, more damage would have been done.
I read this article today - www.sparkpeople.com/reso
I see several things that I've let go that made me lose and maintain my 70 lb loss for 8 years. I'm going to start implementing them again.
1. Set small goals. My first goal is to not eat after bedtime. Simple, right? I'm going to work on that for the next week and then once I'm successful add to that.
2. Take breaks and timeouts. I have implemented a day of rest from my exercise. But my phone rings constantly and I'm going to try just staying away from it and doing something for me during that time. I've also given up my Weight Watcher meetings. I'm no longer doing WW, but I miss that time with other people. I might try going to TOPS or just finding some kind of activity to go to each week that I can enjoy.
3. Proud of themselves. I have spent my entire year so far beating myself up. I look at my facebook memories and then current pictures of myself and get upset. I'm going to work hard on focusing on what I'm doing right and go from there.
4. Take on new challenges. I know my workouts have gotten a little stale. I have been increasing my speed on my runs and while it feels like I'm going to die during my workout, I'm pretty proud of that. And I should be able to start bike riding soon. I'm going to set a distance goal for that.
5. Keep score. I battle between being a constant weigher to not weighing at all. Finding the balance is going to be tough. One thing that I'm doing is making a chart and giving myself stickers for certain behavior changes (not eating after bedtime, keeping my eating moments are examples). I stopped doing that during a visit with my daughter and I think it is a major reason for my setback.
6. Part of a team. I'm active in 2 teams that are helping me change things around.
7. Make it fun. I know part of my slip up was because I was so rigid and strict. I hated always being the one who turned down dessert and I had began to dread my workouts. I'm ready to turn that all around.
I do know it's going to take work. It's going to be hard at first, but will get easier as I retrain my brain.