Thursday, February 11, 2016
First I need to say, I am not giving up - as in quitting this journey.
You hear the word diet. Your first thought? Deprivation. Giving up.....
I am Catholic. This is our Lenten Season. This is the time of year many people give up things they love, things that are hard to give up. Some of my friends are giving up their coffee, others are giving up sweets, others are giving up "junk food", some are giving up soda or alcohol. I even have friends who are giving up tv or becoming "unplugged".
One year we had a priest who said perhaps we should put as much effort into giving of ourselves as we do in giving up things. I gave that some thought. It really wasn't that hard for me to give up something for the Lenten Season. Giving of my time? That was tough. That year I volunteered with a group from the United Way and prepared income tax returns for low income people. I must say - at first it was hard to fit that into my schedule - but after I started, it was a rewarding experience. There is nothing so precious as a gift of your time - for it is a limited commodity!
Well here we are in the Lenten Season again. I have given this much thought. I have decided this year I need to work on my discipline. I need to work on a little deprivation.
Which brings me to: I have decided to give up my coke zero.
That's a tough one for me. I don't drink coffee. I don't drink tea. I WANT to drink tea. I have tried hot tea, iced tea, green tea, white tea, many types of tea..... I don't like it. I don't like the smell, I don't like the taste. I have not been able to acquire a taste for it
I drink Coke Zero and water. I have a Coke Zero in the afternoon at work (12 oz). I usually have one more in the evening - but rarely finish it. On the weekends I may have two or three a day. I love the taste. I love the fizz. I like it. Hands down, I am addicted to Coke Zero.
I have done this before. I have gone soda free for over a year. I know people say that after not drinking it for a long period of time it gets easier, that you don't crave it, that you lose the taste for it. That may be true of most people, but it has not been my experience.
I must be one strange duck. I will say the cravings were not as strong - but they were there. When I went to the store and walked past Coke Zero - I wanted it. When I finally gave in and had a taste I was hoping it would taste sickeningly sweet. I was hoping I wouldn't like it. Wrong again. I still liked it.
Which brings me to the addiction. When I say I am a strange duck, reality is I am a recovering addict. I like instant gratification. Once that little switch is flipped in my head, my mind never forgets. Moderation is not part of my normal make up. I am an all or nothing, impulsive, obsessive and compulsive person. I have to work hard to keep this side of me in check. However, the recovering side of me know if I take this one day at a time, just for today...... I can do it. So having that one Coke Zero - whether in 5 minutes or 5 years - it will flip that switch and once I flip that switch, all bets are off. One is to many and a thousand are never enough.
My goal is to make it through the entire Lenten Season soda free. 38 hours down - about 44 days to go. One day, one hour, one minute at a time. It's all about choices. Today, I choose no soda. Tomorrow I may make a different choice.
During this time I will be drinking water. I will also be drinking mineral water, infused water, flavored zero calorie water and carbonated water.
I know the soda is not good for me. It goes against what I am trying to accomplish. I want to be good to me. My mind tells me because it is zero calorie it is ok, however my mind also knows from the many articles it has read that the chemicals in soda are doing me no favors. I choose to live in a bit of denial there!
So taking off the rose colored glasses. Squinting a bit. Craving. I've been here before. I know this road. I am able to do this. I have everything I need.
Fact: I NEED water to survive.
Fact: I don't need Coke Zero.
One day at a time baby!