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Thursday, February 11, 2016

First I need to say, I am not giving up - as in quitting this journey. You hear the word diet. Your first thought? Deprivation. Giving up..... I am Catholic. This is our Lenten Season. This is the time of year many people give up things they love, things that are hard to give up. Some of my friends are giving up their coffee, others are giving up sweets, others are giving up "junk food", some are giving up soda or alcohol. I even have friends who are giving up tv or becoming "unplugged". One year we had a priest who said perhaps we should put as much effort into giving of ourselves as we do in giving up things. I gave that some thought. It really wasn't that hard for me to give up something for the Lenten Season. Giving of my time? That was tough. That year I volunteered with a group from the United Way and prepared income tax returns for low income people. I must say - at first it was hard to fit that into my schedule - but after I started, it was a rewarding experience. There is nothing so precious as a gift of your time - for it is a limited commodity! Well here we are in the Lenten Season again. I have given this much thought. I have decided this year I need to work on my discipline. I need to work on a little deprivation. Which brings me to: I have decided to give up my coke zero. That's a tough one for me. I don't drink coffee. I don't drink tea. I WANT to drink tea. I have tried hot tea, iced tea, green tea, white tea, many types of tea..... I don't like it. I don't like the smell, I don't like the taste. I have not been able to acquire a taste for it I drink Coke Zero and water. I have a Coke Zero in the afternoon at work (12 oz). I usually have one more in the evening - but rarely finish it. On the weekends I may have two or three a day. I love the taste. I love the fizz. I like it. Hands down, I am addicted to Coke Zero. I have done this before. I have gone soda free for over a year. I know people say that after not drinking it for a long period of time it gets easier, that you don't crave it, that you lose the taste for it. That may be true of most people, but it has not been my experience. I must be one strange duck. I will say the cravings were not as strong - but they were there. When I went to the store and walked past Coke Zero - I wanted it. When I finally gave in and had a taste I was hoping it would taste sickeningly sweet. I was hoping I wouldn't like it. Wrong again. I still liked it. Which brings me to the addiction. When I say I am a strange duck, reality is I am a recovering addict. I like instant gratification. Once that little switch is flipped in my head, my mind never forgets. Moderation is not part of my normal make up. I am an all or nothing, impulsive, obsessive and compulsive person. I have to work hard to keep this side of me in check. However, the recovering side of me know if I take this one day at a time, just for today...... I can do it. So having that one Coke Zero - whether in 5 minutes or 5 years - it will flip that switch and once I flip that switch, all bets are off. One is to many and a thousand are never enough. My goal is to make it through the entire Lenten Season soda free. 38 hours down - about 44 days to go. One day, one hour, one minute at a time. It's all about choices. Today, I choose no soda. Tomorrow I may make a different choice. During this time I will be drinking water. I will also be drinking mineral water, infused water, flavored zero calorie water and carbonated water. I know the soda is not good for me. It goes against what I am trying to accomplish. I want to be good to me. My mind tells me because it is zero calorie it is ok, however my mind also knows from the many articles it has read that the chemicals in soda are doing me no favors. I choose to live in a bit of denial there! So taking off the rose colored glasses. Squinting a bit. Craving. I've been here before. I know this road. I am able to do this. I have everything I need. Fact: I NEED water to survive. Fact: I don't need Coke Zero. One day at a time baby!
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  • no profile photo CD15635634
    emoticon emoticon Great blog and , WOW, giving up soda! I too am a 1-2 a day girl. I am also all or nothing, compulsive/obsessive,etc. I have stopped drinking soda for stretches in the past , only as you say, flipped on by 1 taste. Luckily for me, I am not an addict, and yet, hear this, I am a smoker. I have tried everything available to quit. It just isn't in me. Desperation to fits of rage and sorrow are what comes of it for me. I truly wish I could join you in this mindful adventure, but, either I don't want to believe I can do it or I am too scared to try again.
    I wish you success and will cheer you on to your success and, as you say, 1 minute, 1 hour, 1 day at a time. Hold on tight for the best thing that has happens to you in a long time. The challenge of believing in yourself. I hold on to hope for you.

    1959 days ago
    Did you know that carbonation inhibits calcium absorption in your bones? Just another reason to stay away from soda! (and other carbonated drinks) (I too am a person who wants to drink tea but just don't like it every time I try. I so want to love green tea!)
    1959 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13423552
    Good for you! I used to be addicted to Diet Dr. Pepper and would drink about 6 cans a day. I went cold turkey about 6 or 7 years ago. I still like the taste but choose not to drink it. I do love tea and I drink a lot of water.
    1959 days ago
    Maybe you could experiment with flavored waters (I mean like vegetable or fruit infused- adding a squirt of lemon juice, a pack of splenda, or a few slices of cucumber, mint or some other fruit or vegetable that you really like the taste of to a glass of water. Adding ice cubes also makes a big difference for me. I find it really helps me to drink more water and feel less deprived when I tell myself "No" to some other drink that I want (Like a big cup of coffee at night when I need to do more but am tired. I have to say no b/c I can't sleep that night if I have the caffeine after about 6pm)
    1959 days ago
    emoticon One day at a time, emoticon
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  • BERRY4
    I remember the FIZZ, the cold, the refreshing taste of my Diet Pepsi years ago. It was my treat for the day during my planning period while teaching. It was fairly ingrained. -- Also, as you mentioned, some of us are more "all-or-nothing" and moderation is a foreign concept!

    But I found, and you mentioned carbonated water. I would add seltzer water to my Pepsi. The reality for me was that over MONTHS of becoming accustomed to more & more dilution, I came to enjoy the flavored seltzer waters. Then they became "too sweet" and water became more enjoyable.

    Now my beverage choices are all over the proverbial "map", but I haven't had a pop/soda in YEARS! I no longer have the cravings, urges, or any other "call" to imbibe.

    In the direction of HEALTH, how about Kombucha?! I started trying the store brands to see if I liked it. I'm thinking that is an AWESOME exchange--from pop to a probiotic health drink! I now brew my own and make a gallon every 10 days or so. It's easy to do, mine has fizz, and you get to choose how to flavor it on a 2nd brew. emoticon



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  • LSIG14
    I really love reading what people are willing to "give up" for Lent. I especially like your priest's suggestion to give up some of your time to help others! Giving up soda one day at a time certainly makes sense to me and is definitely doable! Keep making these good decisions - one day at a time and you will do great!!
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    You can do this.
    1960 days ago
    You can do it! I have had 0 pop since 1/2.
    1960 days ago
    I have given up drinking alcohol, all carbonated drinks and any drink with sugar added. Since Jan 3, 2016 no empty calories. I Don't miss it as much as I thought I would. I'm taking a break until I'm under 200 Lbs. 72 lbs in total 30 to go
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