I didn't want to...
Thursday, February 04, 2016
I have had a busy week at work. I had a busy week in my after work hours - meetings, son's basketball, appointments. Tonight I got my haircut and colored. I got home and sat on the couch. It felt so good to sit and do nothing! I turned on the tv. I thought to myself "I should do those reports for the meeting this weekend". I didn't want to. I thought to myself "I should get on the treadmill and walk a half hour like the doctor wanted me to". I didn't want to. I sat on the couch. I started playing a game on my phone. I turned on the tv.
I really ought to do that stuff. Nah, I don't want to. The phone rang. I chatted with a friend for a half hour. I told her I had things to do, but I didn't want to. She laughed and said "Please don't use me as your excuse!" I got off the phone and started to play a game again. Oh gee I should do that stuff. Ugh. I don't want to.
I got up, put on my walking shoes and got on the treadmill. I didn't want to. I started to count the steps. One, two..... only about three thousand nine hundred ninety eight to go. This is awful! I turned up the music. I started an internal dialogue with myself instead of counting steps. I started telling myself how good I would feel when this was over. I started telling myself how this was moving me towards my weight loss goal and following my doctor's instructions. I told myself how this was getting me conditioned to do a 5k with my grandkids this spring. I started thinking about that 5k and how out of shape I was! I looked at the treadmill and I already had over a mile behind me! I picked up the pace and did a few minutes of a slow run. I was breathless. I can't say it felt good physically - but it felt good mentally. Thirty minutes later I had in a little more than two miles. I didn't want to.... but I DID! WooHoo! Accomplished and crossed off the to do list!
I went upstairs turned on the computer and finished up those reports. I didn't want to. I wanted to sit down, cool off and do nothing. Well those reports are done and I don't have to worry about how I am going to get them done anymore! Now I can go take a shower and sit on the couch! I can watch tv and do nothing!
Sometimes I just don't want to. Sometimes I think and think and wear myself out. Sometimes I am my own biggest obstacle!
I had a trainer who used to say if you want different results, do something different. So I did. I DID IT! All I can say is I'm glad it is all done! No regrets!