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My Love Of My Life

Saturday, January 23, 2016

It's been a really long time since I stopped in. What happened is a long tail that I will not go into for now.

I find myself having to lose weight again stress has knocked me out of maintenance mode.

Life at times is very complicated with many twist and turns Life is NEVER a straight path.

My love of my life has passed away back in November 2015 right before Thanksgiving I had to make the hardiest decision I've ever had to make to shut life support off for my husband Charlie. Back in September his small intestine ruptured and he had to have emergency surgery that's when they found out his gall bladder was dead. Major infection through out his body. For a brief time he was doing better and I thought he would be coming home needless to say that didn't happen. Charlie body rejected the feeding tube and he ended up with another blockage in his intestines and wasn't strong enough for more surgery.

We spoke before this ever happened about living on life support so I knew the decision I had to make and with doctors we decided to shut life support off.

Our marriage was brief May 14, 2014 to his death in November 2015. I feel I'm not sure anymore. My first marriage and it was his first marriage. I know he is still with me and we will see one another again one day.

RIP Charles Huston Williams April 1970 to Nov 2015 only 45 years old

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    Belated sympathy darling - somehow I've been so wrapped up in my own probs that I never noticed these recent blog entries of yours... Hope & pray that you are in a somewhat better place now...
    1858 days ago
    Oh, Linda. I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how hard it was to say goodbye. emoticon But I am so happy to see you back on Sparkpeople!!
    1874 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your loss. I too haven't been on here in awhile. I too have lost my way a bit since my father's death in November of 2014. I can relate to your struggles but at the same time we must go on for them by carry them in our hearts, living our lives for them, and honoring whom they were to us by living a healthy, happy, fulfilled life...it's what they would want for us. I truly hope you find peace within your life and reach your dreams and goals! We are here for you. Hugs
    1909 days ago
  • DSJB9999
    So sorry for your loss! What a horrible decision to have to make but I know my dh and I would have decided the same. Take care of yourself! He would have wanted that I am sure! He will always be in your heart xxx emoticon
    1939 days ago
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    1939 days ago
    Linda, so sorry to hear about the loss of your husband! My thoughts are with you. Loss is always hard. Know that however you feel is ok. There's no right or wrong way to grieve.
    1939 days ago
  • ALEC1654
    I am so very sorry. My horse was struck by lightning last spring and that was extremely painful, but it can't even compare to the pain you must have felt. Sometimes it is so hard to understand God's plan.
    1939 days ago
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    I'm so sorry for your loss :( That must be absolutely awful! I've never had to deal with a loss, so I don't really know what to say, but I hope the pain that you were suffering is easing with time.

    Welcome back onto SP though, it's great to see you!
    1939 days ago
  • VALSPARK2013
    I am sorry for your loss. Right now you are going through some tough emotions right now, and it's ok that the maintenance mode has become put aside for now. You will get back to it, right now you're mourning your loss, and that is important. Just try to do your best with your nutrition, and it will all work out. emoticon
    1939 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss.
    1939 days ago
  • JADE_01
    Sorry for your loss. I can empathize with you. My daughter was killed years ago. Its a painful, empty place to be. I know the heartbreak when you lose a person you love. Heart feels like its literally broken. Time really does help heal the pain.
    1939 days ago
    emoticon I lost my sister and now soon my brother. It is very hard, but you need to know that you need to take care of yourself. Treat yourself well during the grieving process. You did nothing wrong so do not overeat b/c you are sad. You had no control of the situation and it was not your fault at all. Things just happen, so exercise and eat healthy. You are loved. emoticon
    1939 days ago
    My thoughts and prayers go out to you. We can bind together and get this healthy lifestyle journey going forward.
    1939 days ago
    Talk to him, he is there :)
    1939 days ago
    Sorry to hear about yu husband. I lost someone I loved dearly almost 8 years ago. One day at a time. Have faith, the days will get better I promise. Just remember that he is always with you. Ta
    1939 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss, please know you are cared for by many! Your strength to love yourself is the love he has for you burning strong forever. "Death cannot stop true love, it can only delay it for a short time."
    1939 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss yes those that have passed on live with us always and I pray that you are able to move on be blessed
    1939 days ago
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