There are moments (and some of those moments last a pretty long time) where I am completely confused about why I am having a difficult time losing the weight. There have been times where I felt I just couldn't do it.
Right now - I have been sticking to my plan for over a week now. Why do I say only over a week? I've been trying to do this for years!!!
Well - when I am brutally honest with myself, I have to recognize that, as much as I may protest over the following thought, one cookie is not an option.
Yup. You heard me.
If I want to get this weight off I cannot have "just a bite".
I cannot lick off the spoon while I am baking - even if I log it.
I cannot have a lollipop to tame my sweet tooth.
I cannot have "just one" small cookie at a party.
I used to say to myself, "How can ONE piece of cake be the cause of my not losing any weight when I am "perfect" for the rest of the week?!?
Well - I don't know how - but I know that it CAN!
It's not easy.
In fact it is very difficult.
Frankly - It's totally angry-making at times.
but - when I find myself coming home from a party where I did not eat any of the lovely pastries that were offered (or rather that people tried to force down my throat) I feel great!
The crazy thing is that right when I realize how great I feel for having resisted eating all those yummy things, the next crazy thought in my head is, "I should really treat myself for having been so good! I deserve a cookie!"
When I had that thought it was even MORE difficult to resist because my inner glutton was having a major tantrum....
But I just made myself a cup of tea and went to sleep.
The next morning I felt amazing!!!!!
So - We can all do this, if we are truly honest with ourselves and exert a TREMENDOUS amount of willpower.
It's really not easy, but it's the only way.
Maybe I can have that ONE cookie when I'm on maintenance - but only on very special occasions...