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Biggest blog day of the year?

Friday, January 01, 2016

I am venturing a guess that today is the biggest blog day of the year...it's a new beginning, a fresh start, a great marker in our personal histories...the dawn of a new year!

And, while I have never been big on New Year's resolutions, I am going to take advantage of this day to set a beacon for the recovery of my success. I won't spend time beating myself up...since a lifetime of that did nothing but harm. I am setting a renewed intention, and giving myself the opportunity to make positive progress.

I want to make what seem like the HARDEST parts, tools for a winning strategy. The last two years have taught me that fueling my body, feeling genuinely healthy and strong, and living with courage and belief in my ability are what I am after....far more powerful than the number on a scale. But the number on the scale can be a powerful illustration of how WELL I am fueling my health and strength, how courageously I am exercising my power.

With that said, I look back on my last blog entry - October 19, 2015...six weeks after my dog died. I had managed to maintain my weight and felt like I was pulling out of the grief I'd been experiencing. After that time, I began to falter, to slip, to fall, further and further into the places I dread. I've been adrift. I have gained 23 lbs.

Those pounds have made me feel uncomfortable, sluggish. I don't recognize myself in the mirror (or, I am recognizing a person I have not known for a long time, and wasn't particularly keen on). My skin is not clear, my sleep is disturbed, my routines are out of whack, and I am turning to my old "frienemies" for comfort (sweets, beer, cheese, more sweets).

I know what works for me. And, I have the power. I have the motivation.

I am worth the effort. I deserve to feel comfortable. I am ready to have the numbers on the scale moving down again...as a visual demonstration of how well I am taking care of myself.

I am the captain...and I am no longer adrift.
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  • MAMABEAR372
    I love what your goals are. Those goals I truly believe you can and will genuinely meet!
    1880 days ago
  • BONNIEMCC488
    It's been a tough year for a lot of us, losing loved ones. I lost my uncle in October and my grandpa had a heart attack a couple months before that, seems like the last four months of the year were full of stress and/or turmoil. I also gained some weight back myself and am doing the same thing as you, returning to the things that worked for me... trying to find a balance again! We will get there!
    1881 days ago
  • JACKIEWALKS4FUN
    Tough year for you. Glad you write your New Year blog and are ready to move forward with what works for you. Yes, you are worth it.
    Onward to a successful New Year. emoticon emoticon
    1881 days ago
  • EZDUZIT_1-2-3
    Congratulations for choosing to no longer drift along. Go forward set your goals and track everything you put your mouth, and be sure to remember to drink plenty of water, and don't forget the exercise. You sound so positive so keep yourself on track
    1881 days ago
  • MAYIE53
    I really enjoyed reading your blog. Your honesty plus the insight you have shared leads me to believe that you certainly CAN and WILL get this right! You recognize where you have fallen and what you need to do to get yourself back on track. All the best to you in 2016!! Blessings. emoticon
    1881 days ago
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