Biggest blog day of the year?
Friday, January 01, 2016
I am venturing a guess that today is the biggest blog day of the year...it's a new beginning, a fresh start, a great marker in our personal histories...the dawn of a new year!
And, while I have never been big on New Year's resolutions, I am going to take advantage of this day to set a beacon for the recovery of my success. I won't spend time beating myself up...since a lifetime of that did nothing but harm. I am setting a renewed intention, and giving myself the opportunity to make positive progress.
I want to make what seem like the HARDEST parts, tools for a winning strategy. The last two years have taught me that fueling my body, feeling genuinely healthy and strong, and living with courage and belief in my ability are what I am after....far more powerful than the number on a scale. But the number on the scale can be a powerful illustration of how WELL I am fueling my health and strength, how courageously I am exercising my power.
With that said, I look back on my last blog entry - October 19, 2015...six weeks after my dog died. I had managed to maintain my weight and felt like I was pulling out of the grief I'd been experiencing. After that time, I began to falter, to slip, to fall, further and further into the places I dread. I've been adrift. I have gained 23 lbs.
Those pounds have made me feel uncomfortable, sluggish. I don't recognize myself in the mirror (or, I am recognizing a person I have not known for a long time, and wasn't particularly keen on). My skin is not clear, my sleep is disturbed, my routines are out of whack, and I am turning to my old "frienemies" for comfort (sweets, beer, cheese, more sweets).
I know what works for me. And, I have the power. I have the motivation.
I am worth the effort. I deserve to feel comfortable. I am ready to have the numbers on the scale moving down again...as a visual demonstration of how well I am taking care of myself.
I am the captain...and I am no longer adrift.