Ending the year
Wednesday, December 30, 2015
This is my last day of work for 2015! I just realized as I sit here that I am going into 2016 and for the first time in years I am not planning the best time to have a surgery or a reconstructive procedure. My life has been consumed by survival since 2011. Always trying to figure out the best time for my body and my family for me to have reconstructive procedures done, having to deal with the problems the medicine and treatment caused. Continuing to keep my job as I worked around health recovery issues. When I was in the middle of it I thought I was fine-because I had to be; I needed some kind of control. Now I look back on the past 4 years and wonder how I have done it.
But now for the first time there are no future procedures to plan, no worrying about getting stronger before a surgery so I can recover easier. No wondering if I will miss too much time from work and not be able to pay my bills.
I can just move forward.
It's been so long since I have had this feeling that I really think I might cry from the sheer relief of it all.
I can't wait for 2016!!