Frustration Sets In
Monday, November 30, 2015
The blog title says it all so I'm going to try to start off with some positives:
I'm very pleased with my discipline lately - I've been entering my food (almost compulsively) in the Nutrition Tracker since the first of October. I'm monitoring most of my portion sizes. I've been heading to the gym regularly two to three times a week with additional activity besides for over a month. I've met with a trainer to learn how to use the weight machines properly and then again to learn additional strength exercises. I have a plan in place that I'm following and I've lost five pounds.
I've learned a lot too - I learned that I often didn't meet my fiber and protein requirements so I've been keeping better track and now I've met them for the better part of a month. I also am almost finished the Fiber Challenge on SparkPeople and have learned a huge amount about fiber and nutrition in general. I feel pretty good and I'm keen to see more results.
But. I don't feel like I'm seeing enough results. I worry about becoming too obsessive about entering my foods, but I rely on the nutrition tracker now to make sure I'm getting enough fiber, protein and calories. I feel like it's making my food boring. If I find something I like that provides good nutrition I will stock up on it partially because I know it's healthy, but also because it's easier to enter something into the nutrition tracker the next time, but that leaves me eating the same lunch every day.
I also feel that the only way I'm really going to see results is by seriously increasing my activity. I get decent cardio in at the gym and I walk, strength train, and do yoga besides. I feel like the only way I'll get ahead is if I do more and more and more. I'm thinking about doing 20 minutes on the elliptical at lunchtime every other day (sometimes I think I should do it every day) but when does it become too much? Small lifestyle changes are fine, but should I really let myself obsess over how many grams of what I ate and adding ever more activity in my life?
Also - this is just before the Christmas holiday season is really upon us. Having to constantly decide between denying myself treats and indulgences or seeing the scale stagnate [or go up!], how frustrated will I be by the end of the year?
I know this is all temporary. I know (hope) things will get better as things become more routine for me. I know it's only been two months. I know it takes time. I know muscle weighs more than fat (although I doubt I've worked out enough for that to be a factor). But I'm still frustrated and need to acknowledge my experience - for me...and maybe anyone else who feels the same. And maybe getting this all out will let it dissipate and allow the positive feelings back in.