(NOVEMBER) Thanksgiving brings to mind gratefulness
Saturday, November 07, 2015
A few years ago I decided I wanted to practice gratefulness more often. I feel this has changed my mindset to a more positive note and November (Thanksgiving specifically) is traditionally when most people give thanks so I decided I would take the whole month to practice gratefulness on a daily basis.
I am grateful for many things daily but I do not always appreciate that or remember to acknowledge it. I try to thank my angels & God daily for the many positive things in my life and sometimes my pride or inner child gets in the way.
What is harder is to thank them also for the negative things in my life. I am growing from these experiences even though they may be uncomfortable for me and I am grateful to be maturing and growing spiritually. This was brought back to mind when I talked to a dear spark sis about my dad. I loved my dad but his diseases made him an angry person & he found it hard to get close to people, give hugs, etc. I learned so much from him and from his suffering and while I some times wish he had been a "normal TV type" dad, I am grateful I had him as a father. He worked hard to provide for his family. I also admire my mom for standing by him and supporting him and for loving her kids enough to suffer through some of the harder times.
Today I am grateful for having "enough", enough food, shelter, job help, a running car, support from my family, etc. I always want more. I want to fill my emotions with "things" or food which does not help me. I found myself in a terrible credit card debt and dug my out twice. there will be no third time for that crap. Now I buy in my budget and with cash or I do not buy. I evaluate my emotions. Will I use this, how much will I use it, do I really need it or do I just want it, will I continue to use this next year, does this fill an emotional void, etc.
These small changes have helped me so much, that you will never know. I still get negative. I still whine... LOL ! I feel that over all, I have become more positive and I feel like I really like & enjoy more of my life now. It took me awhile to get there and I want to share a youtube link that I found to be helpful to me to be more positive and "BELIEVE" that I could do this for life.
I feel like so much of MY journey is the exchanges or thoughts that happen in my head. Any way I can be the mommy to my inner child and win the temper tantrum that she throws, I feel like I get healthier. So continue to fight friends because we are worth it !