Still here.. Hanging by a Thread
Friday, October 30, 2015
Okay so I'm still here. I'm hanging on by a thread but I'm Not giving up!! For some reason I'm finding this journey so much harder than the last time. I can't seem to get it together. Yes things have changed. I now have 3 kids that need my attention all the time. I'm also homeschooling them now. Where as before my oldest was in school and at the time my youngest was here with me. Our routine is different for sure. But the homeschooling seems to be working out for us in many ways. My stress level has been alittle more I guess. I just need to get back to where I was before we decided to have another baby. And Yes he was worth the weight gain and the changes. I love my babies more than anything! Thus another reason I need to lose this weight and be healthier for my babies. I guess what I'm saying is I need to find my will power and give my motivate a huge kick in the butt!! I've got to make time for me! My biggest issue is feeling guilty. Guilty because the house isn't staying super clean any more and I know it bothers my hubby. And guilty when I'm not giving my kids my full attention and spending all my time making memory's with them now while there young. To be honest guilt seems to be eating me. Causing me the most of my stress.
Sorry for the downer! I guess I just need to get this out.
Thank you for taking the time to read.
I hope you have a Great Weekend! Happy Halloween!