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Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Usually, when I fall silent on Spark it is because I am having a bad streak, eating compulsively and gaining weight.

This time it has been the opposite. My situation in august was desperate. I had not managed to lose any weight during vacation and started my autumn fatter than ever before, my scale could not register so I did not know how catastrophal it might be.

Desperate situation demands desperate actions... I went to an information meeting for a health club at one of the indoor swimmingpool/gyms I visit. This is called Itrim and wants you to start by starving for 12 weeks... I listened and read the research reports they claimed and signed up for two years. For an awful lot of money I am getting coaching and workshops and of course membership at both gym and swimming facilities.

The startup twelve weeks has not passed entirely yet - I fell off with a thump after three weeks - the system is that the first three weeks I am supposed to eat 600 cal/day and then it is 800/day for the remaining nine weeks. I did the three weeks almost without mistakes although I decided that I did not want to eat there artificial stuff so I made my own soups. Lost eight kilos. Since then I have bee on and off all the time, have lost another seven kilos and am trying to enjoy the experiences I am getting. There are very few days I manage to eat only 800 kcal, mostly I end up 1600-1900 which is enough to lose weight with for a person as fat as me.

My focus is to incorporate the fact that I will never be perfect, I will always slip and slide with stuff and have to try again... the thing is to keep on trying. To attend every workshop that is possible, to do the "homework" they give us, to participate.
I have another aim to - not to be as obedient I usually try to be when I enter a program. This time I will respect my own experience as well - which feels a little silly as it has not taken me where I want to go but none of my "diets" has done that either when I have tried to do exactly as I have been told.

I signed up for two years, if I had succeeded I would have lost all the overweight in one and then spent the second in trying to find maintenance. As I do not succeed as well as I had wished it will not be as planned... but however the result I will regard myself as a HUGE success if I continue trying for both years!

And for the first time losing that initial weight made a huge difference. I hav lost up to 20 kilos before in my life, the effect has been mainly cosmetical - being able to wear smaller clothes and maybe felt more energy. This time the main difference is in my well being. In august I sat in my car and looked at the entrance at my workplace and thought "how will I be able to walk all that way..." I dreaded stairs, I coul dnot walk the dog in the woods longer than for ten-fifteen minutes, my feet was giving me a really hard time. I could bike with the dog and I could swim.

Now it is a lot easier to move, I have taken up hula hooping although the weather is a hurdle, I need to make space inside for hooping when winter arrives.

To quote another spark member -onwards, upwards!

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    Good for you for trying and trying again. emoticon
    So glad to hear that you lost weight and that it makes such a difference! That gives me hope.
    The program sounds very tough to me, but I know that you have always felt attracted to the 'kamikaze style' if I recall well.
    Wishing you great success.

    If you read my blogs you'll see that I chose a very different path, I am in treatment for binge eating now and 'not allowed' to try to lose weight, at all, learning to first do 'normal eating'. (If we follow their instructions for 'normal eating' it could be that some lose weight and that's okay, but we are not supposed to 'diet' or do special things to lose weight).
    I am giving the therapist there a very hard time, discussing the food plan they want me to follow. They want us to eat a lot of bread and dairy and I am the freggie lover.... But, I have decided to go along as well as I can and see where the treatment will take me. Their rules do make sense to me and it is a relief to not have to do it all on my own, and to have clear guidelines to hang on to.

    I agree with the others that it's probably best to not go below 1500 calories. That's one thing I was told in the therapy: we are 'allowed' (after 1 year of being binge free) to try to lose weight but they said to then also, NEVER try to eat less than 1500 calories per day.
    1827 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/28/2015 3:56:03 AM
    Your following such a low calorie plan, especially for such a length of time, concerns me. Such low calorie diets cause muscle loss, and the heart is a muscle too. Some people following such low calorie plans die when the muscle loss negatively affects the heart. Or lack of electrolytes can negatively affect the heart and cause death by a heart rhythm disorder. At the very least such a diet, by causing so much muscle loss, will severely lower your metabolism, and you will then gain weight, often even while still on very low calories.

    Metabolism is run by muscles. The best way to increase your metabolism is to increase your muscle mass - with exercise and a diet that supports keeping your muscle mass. Remember, a very low calorie diet will lower your muscle mass and thus your metabolism. You will end up heavier than before. And, you will be doing damage to your health the whole time you are on a very low calorie diet.

    Losing weight is HARD. But, the only way to lose it long term is with a healthy plan that gives sufficient calories to support metabolism. Please contact a doctor or dietician to help you with such a plan.
    1827 days ago
    To me it sounds like you are succeeding. You are participating and learning and incorporating many elements into your life and you are seeing a measurable change in yourself. I wish you all the best throughout this 2-year commitment. Life is about finding your path, not walking a tightrope.
    1827 days ago
    emoticon way to go, and I too am glad you do not follow the 600 -800 calorie intake ,It is absolutely not god for the body.
    I am glad you seem to find a balance that work for you, it might be slower than what you wanted but it is better in the long run I think. emoticon as long as you get the right amount of the nutrients you need.

    1827 days ago
    Glad to hear you are finding success with your goals. I too agree that you should not eat less than 1500 calories a day - of healthy foods. It sounds like you discovered that for yourself!! Happy for you and your success!!
    1827 days ago
    I was relieved to read you were not following their program exactly; I will NOT eat less than 1500 calories a day, it messes with my metabolism. I credit that kind of diet with my regaining more than I lost over many years of yo-yo-ing. As you get more comfortable being more active; the rest will come easier too! Consistency and activity are key and you are exactly right; not quitting IS a VICTORY. You are in a stage of this program now that I can endorse. I consider your approach sound, you SHOULD trust it! Knowledge is not the problem. This last time, that brought me to goal, I tried to stay between 1500-1800 calories 5 days a week and going up to 2000 a couple of days was fine. The loss was slow, but I could live that way without considering it a diet. Still do, but today I have a LOT more activity in my life. Evidently my metabolism has changed some as my activity was really curbed mid summer this year and I expected to gain but am happily still in my goal range. The meds I'm on are known to cause gain; I'm determined to not let that happen. You can do this! emoticon
    1827 days ago
    Thank you for commenting and making me aware that I have not described the situation well enough - after the initial twelve weeks of extremely low calorie consumption the goal will be to consume about 1400-1600 kcal a day which is what I need to maintain a healthy week. An if you read the blog you would see that it is what I do even now when I am supposed to eat less... and of course it is doable, I have studied their numbers. Also research has shown that an initial big weightloss seems to be more efficient to help you maintain once you reach that number, we┬┤ll see.
    My doctor is reslly listening to me and support my thoughts.
    1828 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/27/2015 3:04:48 AM
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    What you are doing does not sound fun...No, not Fun...What you are doing does not sound doable. You are eating too few calories to get the vitamins and nutrients that you need. Yes, it might be a faster approach to weight lose, but you have only planned for a 2 year period. You need to make changes that are going to be doable for life. Please be careful and definitely get your doctor's opinion.
    1828 days ago
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