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Changes in thinking?

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Ok, here is my day yesterday, I head to work and get a flat tire, i'm 30 minutes late for work, I was to leave at 4:00 but stayed till 4:30 to make up my time, I came home and cooked dinner, and ate and no eating after, went to bed at a good time, and fell asleep fast. What do you see missing here? I didn't have a binge, it wouldn't of changed a dang thing and it would of made me feel so much worse. So out of my day I succeeded and went to bed with a clear mind.

So I finally had the one day i have been blindly searching for all along. Control in my own mind and body. I allow my mind to decide what is ok and what isn't.

Yesterday on my blog I had comments about therapy, eating to cover up emotions, let me be clear here.....I don't cover emotions. I eat when i'm bored. Ok maybe that is covering for something but I have no emotions, I have had therapy, I mean any child of abuse had that right? I had the statistic first marriage that was an epic fail, I have the two children I raised alone until my second hubby came along. I have the marriage some envy, we are best friends, and he always is there to pick me up. He thinks I look fine, but as I tell him it is what I feel that matters. Nope I don't have emotional issues, I worked through them years ago, what i have is plan and simple......laziness issues. I know something is holding me back from working hard for what I want, but in truth it is because I have walked this road before, gotten down and gained back all plus, so inside i'm like why bother you'll just gain it back. But not this time. I'm taking this journey one day at a time. I will fall on my face, that is a given, I will pick me up, and I will see this journey through till the end.

So, no matter what I got this. One day, one step, one minute at a time.

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