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Hanging on!

Thursday, October 01, 2015

Well, I've proven I'm not much of a blogger. To say I have struggled over the past year is an understatement. I did not anticipate the difficulty of the transition that faced me when my youngest left the nest and went to Africa for his mission and we moved from our home of over 14 years leaving all my friends and of course the familiar and comfortable. Depression has been my constant companion over this past year and I have really struggled to really keep my head above water. It all seemed to come to a head in September. I really ran my health off into the weeds. I gained the few pounds back that I lost and my blood sugar numbers and blood pressure are not good!! HOWEVER, I'm still here and I woke up this morning grateful to be alive and thrilled that it is October, my favorite month EVER! I woke up and decided before I ever got out of bed that I am going to shelve any sadness, grief, loneliness, frustration, disappointment, etc. until after this glorious month is over. I'm not going to worry about "fixing" any of it. I am simply going to put it all aside and enjoy every day of this fun month by finding fun ways to move my body, pamper myself instead of condemn myself and have faith that all things will work out!
First thing I did this morning was go out to my pumpkin patch and pick my one ginormous pumpkin, take pics of it and set it on my porch. I then got out my yummy pumpkin scented candle and filled my home with that yummy fall smell. Then, I closed my eyes and said a silent prayer of gratitude. Happy October everyone!
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  • YESTERTHING
    I love your attitude, and am glad to see you are fighting back. Depression is a drag and I think we all struggle with it at some point in life. Keep checking back in, we miss you!
    1772 days ago
  • JACKIEWALKS4FUN
    I am glad you are hanging on. Changes are so hard and you have been through many stressful changes. I sure understand! I sold my home and really am missing my gardens. Was not to happy for awhile, but started hiking and discovering new places, so I can be outside. We are working on finding a new place, but I am taking my time, don't want to make a mistake.
    October is one of my fave Months too. I got excited when you talked about your pumpkin patch. I will came back to look for that picture.
    Hope your son is doing well emoticon
    Le'ts have a very Happy October. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1815 days ago
  • TRUKERRJIMG3
    Good afternoon, I understand what you're going through I myself lost a lot of weight and within a year have put on 80 pounds. This is a great month rocktober is my birthday month I will be 52 and I will lose what I have gained. Good luck
    1815 days ago
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