So, I reached that dreaded point where there was just no way I would fit into a desk. Even the tall students complain about them. It's so embarrassing to not just be able to sit wherever you want. It's also awful to try to choose your classes based off of which classes have tables and chairs but I didn't do that this year
It's not just from bad eating habits. Thyroid issues play into it. For those of you that don't know, 5 years ago, I began feeling unwell. Lots of hypothyroid symptoms. I was eating healthier than ever but so exhausted to the point of falling Sleep for hours at a time and a consequence of that was not moving around much. I gained a whole lot of weight rapidly and not 20 lbs. way more! Finally, received the diagnoses a year and a half later along with another endocrine issue! Before that, I was overweight ( the first endocrine issue I had at 10 but wasn't dx until 22) I could fit into any desk I wanted. It wasn't until trying different meds that desks were not an option anymore.
I've written about it in blogs numerous times so I won't bore you with all of the details. If you suspect a thyroid issue, spark mail me and ask whatever questions you have. :)
Now that I've bored you with some details, I'll just let you know in 2 classes I found tables to sit at but its still embarrassing:/ Nobody was rude or seemed judgmental and that helps.
When I got to my first class, I sat down in the back between 2 girls. Then one girl got up right away, mumbled something about not wanting to sit there and went and sat on the other side of the room instead. This is the second time this happened to me. I have good hygiene. I was wearing deodorant, My breath was fresh. I sit in the back close to a door due to anxiety so if I need to get up and get away for a few minutes, then it won't be an issue or a distraction.
Maybe she moved for a different reason but as a person who has not always fit in and still doesn't (and I'm not just talking about in a desk!), it does hurt a little. That has even happened in my past in 7th grade. Four desks would be grouped together and I would sit at one but nobody would sit at the other three. :( Someone on this site once suggested that maybe I was giving off bad vibes. That is so offensive. You get bad vibes from someone who is walking down your street at 2 AM or by driving through a shady neighborhood.
See, I won't pretend to be anybody I'm not, I'm not going to waste energy putting on a facade just to not be lonely.
It's okay that that girl was a snob ( I really believe she didn't move for any other reason), I met a different girl who was from a different culture and multilingual. Way more interesting.
And as for the desks, All I can do is work on that. I can't shrink myself overnight. We allll wish. Lol. You know it's true!