Oh No! My Procrastination Is Showing!
Thursday, September 24, 2015
Yes I am a big-time procrastinator. I cannot wait for the day when I can say I am a recovering procrastinator! LOL
My original title for this post was, "Not Going As Planned," which is also true but it's kind of hard to follow a plan that is nonexistent.
When I was on here a few days ago I posted that I needed to set some short-term goals to get me to my April 2016 deadline and yea...still haven't gotten around to that. I believe the reason for my procrastination is because I am having a hard time facing where I am in my life right now. It's still so hard for me not to look back and go, "Seriously Christi?! What the heck are you doing??" It's hard to accept myself for who I arm right now. I feel so uncomfortable in my body. I hate it. :( If I create small goals it means facing where I'm at right at this moment and I don't want to. Call it living in denial or procrastination or whatever but it's so hard to face the reality that is Christi right now. Can anyone feel me on this??
I've fallen off the wagon the past few days but I'm starting my day here and am getting my focus for TODAY. I can't change the choices I made yesterday or this week but I can change the course of TODAY. So TODAY I am setting a few goals and one of them is already completed: logging into SP and making one new friend.
MORE GOALS FOR TODAY:
-----> Log all my food (and let me just say this one is tough for me. I HATE logging my food!)
-----> Treadmill training (I am hoping to do a 10k in October and I haven't trained in weeks)
-----> Journaling (which I am doing right now but also in my personal journal)
Now lets see if I can beat this procrastination bully today!