SELF IMAGE IS EVERYTHING!
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
I have found now that I am heavier (fatter and out of shape) for the first time in my life, that I am having a hard time with self image. All of my life I was a "my body is my temple" type of person who only ate healthy and worked out every day to keep my body healthy, strong and in shape. Unfortunately I went into image denial when a Pituitary Brain Tumor hit me hard causing major body changes and side effects.
After open cranial brain surgery and ten years of doctors trying to "get a handle" on my endocrine system, nothing is working and it has grown back again. Over the years when I would complain I was EXTREMELY TIRED AND GAINING WEIGHT some infuriating/placating doctor comments over the years were/are..."You can't be 20 again, be realistic." or "You're getting older now." or " 10 pounds in 60 days isn't anything to worry about." or "You can handle this extra weight because you are tall and you gain it all over -- you're lucky!"
So now I can hardly drag myself out of bed in the morning and lift a cup of green tea to my lips. LOL I am also (after dieting for 2 years) 52 pounds over my regular weight and very, very out of shape.
This brings me to SELF IMAGE. I had bought into the wrong assumption that since I wasn't the person I was previously I WASN'T AS WORTHY OR AS ATTRACTIVE! SparkPeople helped readjust my thinking on this and get me "back on the right way of looking at myself."
In closing I want to share a photo that MOTIVATES AND REMINDS ME... SELF IMAGE IS EVERYTHING!