Reset Day 108: Keep it simple
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
I have had a stress filled week. My friend is unexpectedly back in the hospital and there have been employee issues at work that I have had to deal with, top that off with just the little unexpected let downs that happen along life's way....
However, I have found my walks with my dog have been very therapeutic in helping me process some things away from work, people and the pressures of life. After our long walks, I am ready to relax!
Now my eating. I have noticed that I struggle when I am alone. Yep, I think I could be a closet eater! I tend to binge when I am home alone watching tv. Now, if I can keep myself busy, I do better - however one cannot be busy every night. I need to learn how to handle my alone time in a more positive way. I find when I binge I don't think - I just eat - and then afterwards I overthink!
I live alone. I don't need to buy treats for my kids lunches or my hubby - or anyone. I don't NEED to have them in my house yet they always seem to find their way in! Usually it is that justification I do when grocery shopping - the grandkids would like these (but they never see them because I eat them). I love the saying it is easier to say no at the store one time than multiple times at home. However, I am not saying no at all most of the time!
I thought about going back to working with a nutritionist - but I really don't feel that is the answer. I know what I SHOULD be eating - I just am not doing it.
I thought about doing a meal plan type diet - but I know that would only be successful until I lost the weight then I would go back to my old ways. (Been there, done that)
I thought about joining a group like Weight Watchers - which usually works for me because I like collecting those silly little gold stars, etc - but as the months roll by I lose interest in the gold stars and return to my old habits. (Gained and lost the same 30 pounds numerous times doing that)
I thought about supplements, I thought about surgery, I thought about lots of stuff searching for the easier, simple way. Reality, even something as drastic as surgery won't be successful if I don't change my eating habits.
Reality? I don't need a weight loss guru, a nutritionist, or a surgery to lose the weight. I have everything I need. I just need to have faith in myself and the process.
I have made changes in my life to make exercise a part of my daily routine. Sometimes I get a bit obsessive about it - but I guess if one has to be obsessive about things, steps on a fitbit isn't that bad of a thing to obsess about.
I incorporated strength training in my weekly routine. I have been doing these things religiously. Sometimes I don't want to, but I get them done.
Which brings me to my Achilles heel of healthy eating. It really isn't that difficult. If I can only learn to stop myself from reacting with food and making that reaction a calculated action.
If before I put something in my mouth I can take the time to ask myself "why am I eating this?" and "how is it going to take me towards my goal of better health?" I can raise my awareness and make better decisions.
You see, I find myself reacting with food and then asking myself "Why DID I eat that?" and commenting "Now I am farther from my goal" - when it is too late to do anything about it.
So, for now, I am trying to keep it simple and ask myself those two questions BEFORE I eat.
Today was my first success. I made a sandwich and brought an apple for lunch. I wanted chips with my sandwich. I drove across the street to the store to get some chips. As I picked them up I asked myself that question - how will this take me towards my goal? I put them back down and walked out of the store. I didn't need the chips. I wanted the chips. Having that bag of chips would have led to a few more lunches with sides of chips - or a binge on the remainder of the bag later tonight. Ahhhh, sweet honesty.
Well, that felt good. You see, I CAN be in control of what I put in my mouth. Sometimes, I just don't want to.
For now, I will do my best to keep asking those two questions before I react with food. One choice at a time...... keep it simple.