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Reset Day 108: Keep it simple

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

I have had a stress filled week. My friend is unexpectedly back in the hospital and there have been employee issues at work that I have had to deal with, top that off with just the little unexpected let downs that happen along life's way....

However, I have found my walks with my dog have been very therapeutic in helping me process some things away from work, people and the pressures of life. After our long walks, I am ready to relax!

Now my eating. I have noticed that I struggle when I am alone. Yep, I think I could be a closet eater! I tend to binge when I am home alone watching tv. Now, if I can keep myself busy, I do better - however one cannot be busy every night. I need to learn how to handle my alone time in a more positive way. I find when I binge I don't think - I just eat - and then afterwards I overthink!

I live alone. I don't need to buy treats for my kids lunches or my hubby - or anyone. I don't NEED to have them in my house yet they always seem to find their way in! Usually it is that justification I do when grocery shopping - the grandkids would like these (but they never see them because I eat them). I love the saying it is easier to say no at the store one time than multiple times at home. However, I am not saying no at all most of the time!

I thought about going back to working with a nutritionist - but I really don't feel that is the answer. I know what I SHOULD be eating - I just am not doing it.

I thought about doing a meal plan type diet - but I know that would only be successful until I lost the weight then I would go back to my old ways. (Been there, done that)

I thought about joining a group like Weight Watchers - which usually works for me because I like collecting those silly little gold stars, etc - but as the months roll by I lose interest in the gold stars and return to my old habits. (Gained and lost the same 30 pounds numerous times doing that)

I thought about supplements, I thought about surgery, I thought about lots of stuff searching for the easier, simple way. Reality, even something as drastic as surgery won't be successful if I don't change my eating habits.

Reality? I don't need a weight loss guru, a nutritionist, or a surgery to lose the weight. I have everything I need. I just need to have faith in myself and the process.

I have made changes in my life to make exercise a part of my daily routine. Sometimes I get a bit obsessive about it - but I guess if one has to be obsessive about things, steps on a fitbit isn't that bad of a thing to obsess about.

I incorporated strength training in my weekly routine. I have been doing these things religiously. Sometimes I don't want to, but I get them done.

Which brings me to my Achilles heel of healthy eating. It really isn't that difficult. If I can only learn to stop myself from reacting with food and making that reaction a calculated action.

If before I put something in my mouth I can take the time to ask myself "why am I eating this?" and "how is it going to take me towards my goal of better health?" I can raise my awareness and make better decisions.

You see, I find myself reacting with food and then asking myself "Why DID I eat that?" and commenting "Now I am farther from my goal" - when it is too late to do anything about it.

So, for now, I am trying to keep it simple and ask myself those two questions BEFORE I eat.

Today was my first success. I made a sandwich and brought an apple for lunch. I wanted chips with my sandwich. I drove across the street to the store to get some chips. As I picked them up I asked myself that question - how will this take me towards my goal? I put them back down and walked out of the store. I didn't need the chips. I wanted the chips. Having that bag of chips would have led to a few more lunches with sides of chips - or a binge on the remainder of the bag later tonight. Ahhhh, sweet honesty.

Well, that felt good. You see, I CAN be in control of what I put in my mouth. Sometimes, I just don't want to.

For now, I will do my best to keep asking those two questions before I react with food. One choice at a time...... keep it simple.
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    I too am a closet eater. It's harder now that I'm a stay-at-home mom. When I was at work, it was much easier to eat healthy because my co-workers were there to see me. Not that I didn't eat crap when I was in my office where no one could see me...but I ate better than now when I'm home and the little ones are napping and the big ones are in school. Those are my toughest 2 hours of the day.
    What I'm going to try to do is focus on drinking more water and eating more fruits and veggies. I'm hoping that if I do those, then I'll automatically eat less junk.
    Together, let's beat this junk food monster!
    2104 days ago
    Good work! Ideas for future:
    ... something to do with your hands while watching TV... like crochet or a Sudoku.
    ....a sentry in the kitchen... just a little journal that is on guard so you have to write down the food you wish to "check out" before you eat it. You can even ask yourself the four questions before being allowed to take the food... are you hungry? is this what you really want to eat? is this what you really want to eat right now? is there a better choice that would be on your plan? The key is how you view this little journal. I COULD be a mean terrible judging character... but it could be a gentle loving reminder to yourself. You decide.. and you could even cover the cover with something inspiring to remind you.
    2105 days ago
    I seem to have a lot of the same issues as you. Junk in the house when I live alone. Why in the world do I buy it. I know I don't need it. I hat going to the store and usually do it only when I have to and then try to eat before I go. I know if I have the food in the house I will eat it and usually in one sitting. Sometimes I can say know and mean it but I am not consistent. I need to be consistent. I know we can do this but it is no picnic. Stress and pain and blaming ourselves does not help. One day at a time and we can and will do this. emoticon emoticon .
    2106 days ago
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    We don't have kids at home either, so I just don't keep the bad things in the house and it makes a difference. I really won't go out to the store for a snack unless I'm desperate and I can usually find something else healthy instead. Just say no at the store. It is hard, but it gets easier. If the grand-kids are coming over, then pick it up - don't plan ahead and then eat it yourself.
    2107 days ago
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    2107 days ago
  • LSIG14
    You are so right - it's a matter of making the choice - will it help me to my goal? By being conscious of eating, we can make the right choice! You have such a good mindset - I congratulate you!
    2107 days ago
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    Small steps. Great job on putting those chips down! It's easy to say no when that kind of food is not around, but so much harder when you're looking at it, touching it, smelling it. You did it!!
    2107 days ago
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    Mindless eating was always my problem too - I whole-heartedly agree with UP-2-ME on listening to your body and changing your mind on certain foods. I don't know if you are tracking, but certain foods are DESIGNED to compell you to eat them, and eat a lot of them - and then crave more of them! They truly are poisonous to our bodies and our desire to be healthy! I would absolutely eliminate those foods and increase your protein and healthy fats for greater satiety.
    Your plan of mindfulness is a great step! Stay strong! Each step forward will get you closer!
    2108 days ago
    What a great and simple solution! Congrats!
    2108 days ago
    It is always one choice at a time.

    I truly believe that curing eating habits is very much like quitting smoking. I eventually did, of course, but it was very hard to learn to tell myself "NO". To accept "never again".

    For me, the final answer, was when I allowed myself to truly feel what it was doing to my body, to actually feel the poison entering my bloodstream and diffusing throughout my body. Then I could truly ask myself "Why are you doing this to yourself?". It may be harder with food, but not impossible. The body tells you when it is uncomfortable, whether from the amount of food or the quality of food. We just need to learn to listen!

    Be strong. You are capable. Ever consider taking up knitting or crocheting? Keep the hand & brain busy in the evening? My mother always knitted while watching TV or whatever.

    2108 days ago
  • SAM_I_AM_2K
    It IS hard... and it IS a one choice at a time situation... emoticon

    Great job on making a good choice (a series of them really). I am fighting the same battle... and also struggle at home (after the kids are in bed usually).

    2108 days ago
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