I am on a two week vacation. One of my goals on this staycation was to make some appointments so I did not have to take time off of work. On the first day off, I had scheduled an appointment with my optometrist.
It was a long time since I had been 2012 as I had become rather frustrated with my "poor plight" Yup there was some feeling sorry for myself mixed in there and pushing down the emotions. You see, I had been diagnosed with a problem with my left eye retina which could not be fixed by laser, but there was a way that the problem could be helped by administering medicine into the eye every month for up to two years. Yikes! I thought but when I read the details, my medical and family history did not make me a good candidate for this procedure.
So, I decided to do nothing and as I am a Christian and I believe in God's healing power, I decided to be a candidate for healing by the Lord.
The reason I decided to return to the optometrist is because my right eye vision was now getting progressively worse.
FEAR....So I thought I better get it checked out. Turns out my right eye can be treated with a stronger prescription and that my right eye health is pretty good. My optometrist just wants me to check my blood sugar for two months before getting the strong prescription to see if it will change.
Back to the specialist I went, dragging along with me that unwanted guest....you got it.....FEAR raised its ugly head!
AGAIN......On the outside I was ok, I had read some Bible Verses like Psalm 91 and my hubby was there with me in the waiting room. Don't you hate that name, The Waiting Room and then you go into an even smaller Waiting Room.....(this reminds me of a Jerry Seinfeld skit). So in that waiting room - all alone - I called out to God to send an angel to be with me. Then I realized I was not alone, He was already there.
My left eye was swollen in the back, bleeding and the eye was not getting enough oxygen. In its efforts to get more oxygen, the eye was making some more veins.
So, long story short -- after tests (several) and a discussion with the specialist ....this time laser can be used and I already had the first session. It really wasn't too bad at all. I have to go back next week and one more time, to save my eye.
This is a praise report...... In 2012, I waited upon the Lord.....no I did not hear an internal voice to wait but that is what I did and what happened. Obviously some advances were made in the ability to use the laser now. The fact that a skilled specialist could get me in so fast. Truly though I was amazed at how quickly I got to see the specialist in just two days! The prompting to go back that would not leave me alone..... pure common sense even!.
I woke up the morning after the emergency treatment with a part of a song in my head,
I'm no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God
I'm no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God.
Yes I am still a nervous nelly, but I am still going back, with that refrain in my ears.
Thank you Lord that you know my every way, especially my tendency to be afraid. You said you would be with me in trouble. And you are!
I know I can't copy the whole song down here, but if you are interested, please check out the whole song on the internet. It is called, "No Longer Slaves". We sing it in church
but when I saw the whole thing written out, it was powerful to me.
I have tested my blood sugar since then and it is pretty good. I joined the Sparkpeople Diabetes group way back in 2012 and have followed the diet they have (most times) but I never did the challenges ..... I have just started a new habit. Challenge me - I do need that Sparkpeople help. From all my sparkfriends ...
I pray you will fight that old enemy fear when you need to as well. See.....it does not deserve a capital "F" any more. It never did because God is bigger, so much bigger!
God bless you all!