My little self & I the grown up self are thinking seriously of leaving Sparkpeople, whew there I've said it out loud; and not just thought about saying it. I've been with spark since 2007, seen many changes to this site, more & more then even more ad's and pop-ups, that sometimes freezes up my computer, and I'm tired of it all.
I've log on each & everyday, the points have decreased, I have streaks going for a long time according to my daily spark page. I'm proud I am so consistent, with weighing & measuring food & logging it in daily along with my physical activity.
I have met some of the only friends I have in my life on Spark. If I leave it will be like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, when she tells the Tin Man "I think I'll miss you most of all" If I choose to leave; I will miss my daughter for I still only have her here on spark, I can go to her page and read things she wrote, I do that so I don't feel like life is so empty. Yet if I leave her and my friends I'll have nothing but time, all the time I've spent on this site reading & writing and creating these relationships will be lost forever.
When I was back home in AZ I found time to do it all work in the garden, hike, walk, take photos. Since moving all I seem to do is walk, walk, come home & check in with Spark and see what my friends are doing or I read their blogs. I can only wish I could go out and have a cup of tea and discuss the pro's & con's of my choice with one of my dear friends. I have no idea if they feel anything for me, yet I chose all of my friends carefully I didn't just friend a person to have another among them all. I am so tore I'm tired of my computer freezing up every there's a "pop-up" that gets on the page.
I've turned this over in prayer several times, it's just this time it really feels as if I've reached the end of my rope, and all the other times I've held onto the rope and told myself this too shall pass.
Does anyone else feel like this???? I don't like the new changes, where they took away our personal goal boards. I understand this is their site and they do what they want do to make money to support this site. Why take away our personal motivation to do it? Do they not think things are personal to us on our own page.
I will sleep on my decision, and if any of the people I feel are my friends respond to this blog I'll consider re-thinking it so I don't lose the people I really love, pray for and care about.
As always thank you to anyone that reads my blog I really appreciate the "clear-head" of not being in this situation. Who knows due to the smoke in our air from all the wildfires--in the west & northwest, I'm maybe having a fuzzy thinking day and over reacting to things I don't like.
Take care & be well do something good for yourself then pay it forward to someone else.
Many Blessings Always Debby