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Reset day 74: I'm back, grateful and making a u-turn

Thursday, August 13, 2015

I am back from vacation. It was wonderful to be away. I reconnected with an old friend I hadn't seen in years. I laughed until my face hurt. I challenged myself with some hikes. I set my feet on the North Country Trail and planted a seed. I took my first ride on a quad. I saw the hand of God and the beauty of nature. I smiled at a strangers kindness. I got off the highway and drove on old historic Route 66. I took some roads less traveled and explored - sometimes being amazed and other times just getting lost. I confirmed my belief - yes, life IS good.

All that said - for those of you who were wondering how that August 1 weigh-in went: I managed to lose .4 of a pound. Yep, only .4. However, I am happy with that. Mr Scale didn't move upwards. OK, I say I am happy with that - but I'm not. I really was hoping for at least one pound. Pounds are so hard to come by for this girl!

However, the past 12 days have been spent being off my daily routines. Why is it when I go on vacation I feel this need to take a vacation from healthy eating? I prepared. I brought healthy car snacks - however - I did bring some diet soda - my excuse - to stay awake and alert during those long drives. Where I struggle? Eating out. Snacks like late night ice cream, fudge shops, the market with fresh baked goods....I always want to order those things I don't eat at home or don't make at home. We were in upper Michigan - that meant fish. Fish is good. However, I chose to order the batter dipped fried fish! At the hotel, I found the breakfast buffet usually included over ripe bananas, bagels, waffles, fruit loops and raisin bran. Of course from that selection I chose the waffle. A couple days it was breakfast out - cinnamon rolls at the farmers market, pancakes, and other stuff I don't normally eat on which I practiced no control! Not to mention I traveled with the grandkids and of course pizza was on the menu not once, but twice. I had healthy options some of the time (sometime I actually didn't). I chose to eat the unhealthy things and then felt yucky after. The second leg of the trip was to Kansas City - which included fried chicken and bbq! Why is it that focusing on awareness and healthy choices goes out the window? I'm beginning to question if I know how to stop this cycle. I was working so hard on awareness and mindfulness - making my eating a choice - and there I was hand over fist eating.

Exercise? I had a couple ok days - but most days was light on my steps. The worst was Tuesday when we spent over 11 hours in the car driving. Not much to be done there! It is hard to exercise and drive at the same time! For some reason I can forgive myself on this one, but the food thing I am having a hard time with.

I feel incredibly bloated. I can actually see my upper belly growing larger! I don't like it. I don't know what Mr Scale says - but I know what my body is saying. Enough!!!!

So while I had a wonderful vacation, I am feeling frustrated, bloated and discouraged. How do you retain your focus while you are on vacation and the temptations are everywhere? How do you retain your focus when the people around you eat unhealthy? How do you say no to yourself when that little voice says "It's ok, you are on vacation"? What does it take to learn for me to put myself first?

Note to self for future use. This is your life - there IS no vacation! OK, enough said. Now I am going to focus on what I am doing to move towards my goal this very moment.

Perhaps it is coincidence but I read a blog today that talked about what to do when you have a bad day. It said to think of it like the GPS - when you get off the path, do what you need to do to get back on the path right away. The longer you wait, the further you have to go to get back. Well, I am making a U-turn right here, right now.

Dang I am getting sick of writing this same old blog over and over! Something's gotta change and that something is ME!

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  • no profile photo CD11332084
    The best thing is you can look back at all the good times you had while on vacation, because that's what it's all about. You have a big list of things you ate that likely kept you from losing more than you did - and you can use that list as a reminder of what those foods do to you.

    Now that you're back at home, your routine will kick in and you'll get back on track. You can remind yourself about that list when life wants to throw ice cream and pizza at you, and maybe you'll be able to dodge it better. :)
    2136 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7875431
    OK. You had a great time. You fell or slipped or strayed or wobbled in and out of the acquired good habits it takes such incantations to maintain.
    I'm talking about my self here! ;-)
    Your blog and my experience of the past two or more weeks are right in sync.
    We did better.
    And we want to celebrate having a good time.
    And we want to Get Right and Be Okay with the choices (good bad and in between) we made that made "mr scale" be where it is today.

    The deal is: What are we doing today?
    What am I doing today!?

    Let's Commit to doing what it takes at HOME
    with the good rhythms we can GET BACK into!

    Let's Rock This This Weekend and into next week!
    2137 days ago
    This blog really speaks to me because of my own upcoming trip to visit my family back east. Always stressful, and my dad's health is declining. So I thought about your question "how to say no to yourself" on vacation and my first idea is:

    At home it took us a while to develop good habits, right? One by one, for me. That took a lot of time and troubleshooting (still does). But on vacation those established habits aren't easily accessible b/c our home routines and mindset aren't there. Maybe we DON'T say no to ourselves, but find a way to spin it "yes." Like: on our next vacation(s) we focus on one good habit, one that is most likely to trigger other good ones. We often talk about triggers for undesired behaviors on Spark, but there are good triggers, too.

    For me, it's exercise. If I get enough dedicated exercise (endorphin kick?), like 20 min focused movement, I desire good foods. So I say "yes" to exercise and see if the rest falls into place? Of course I'll have a few indulgences, but maybe I can manage them better by keeping good health in mind.

    So on my trip, I think I'll try that and report back. Ah, maybe I should also read a paragraph a day from a mindful eating book (Kindle app), to help keep the right mindset. But if I can only do one thing, it'll be dedicated exercise.

    Thank you so much for this blog, it helped me think through a strategy for my own trip. And I congratulate you for actually LOSING weight on vacation! Numbers aside, YOU DID THAT!! And that's to be commended!
    2137 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/14/2015 3:07:24 PM
  • no profile photo CD12068097
    I hear you. We had a family breakfast this morning (7 of us showed up) and my aunt ordered a egg white omlet, well they brought her the WRONG breakfast and she devoured it. They were of course willing to make her the correct breakfast . She said no that's ok. Then looked at me and said WHY did I do that. she has lost about 30 plus pounds over the last year. I said find that answer and make us all rich.
    2137 days ago
    Good job making that u-turn
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    I don't know what to tell you about being on vacation and eating, as I've not been on a vacation. However, when I go out to eat with family and friends, here where I live. I ALWAYS call the restaurant and then look at their menu on line, to decide what I will eat. Everybody is telling me what to eat, but I stick with what I chose, as it's also something I can afford. Then they are rubbing their bellies and ask me how do I do what I do. Then the education begins for ALL of us!

    There have been times when a restaurant has been sprung on me at the last minute, and when I enter, I immediately ask them if they have a gluten free menu. Most restaurants do, and if they don't I've had enough practice and enough knowledge, to look at the menu and pick out what I'm able to eat.


    - Nancy Jean -
    2138 days ago
  • LSIG14
    emoticon I, too, read the blog about having a bad day and really loved the example of the GPS telling you to make a U-turn! We are not perfect but we do have the choice of turning around and getting right back on our path! We can do this!
    2138 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13423552
    I hear you Barb, it is tough. You go on vacation and you want to have a good time and a good time revolves around food. I have to say I used to be that way and sometimes I still indulge, but not as much as I used to. Do not beat yourself up - move forward!
    2138 days ago
    Great attitude! Be proud of your "U-Turn"! It's easier to call it quits, but have the right attitude. Treat yourself to a non-food souvenir.
    2138 days ago
    I hear you, Barb! I want to cheer for your blog ending...but more, I want to tell you not to beat yourself up over this!

    I think it is perfectly "normal" to take that break while on vacation. We just can't be trying to do the perfect thing all the da**ed time! It wears us out and tears us down! We weren't meant to spend so much time and energy on trying so hard!

    You work every day to change your ways and you succeed, one small step at a time. If you looked back over the past decade or so, perhaps you would realize that you did better on this vacation (both food and activity) than you would have done back then. True change comes neither quickly nor easily! Be kind to yourself! Remember the promise you made to that girl in the mirror?

    I'm going on a vacation in several weeks. I'll relax and drink more alcohol that I should, I'll eat things I wouldn't consider on a daily basis, I'll possibly move less than I would at home (but probably not! I've gotten so I'm uncomfortable "doing nothing") but, most of all, I will let go and enjoy myself.

    Maybe you should take fewer and/or shorter vacations? emoticon

    After 4-5 nights, I am SO ready to come back home!


    2138 days ago
  • SAM_I_AM_2K
    emoticon actually, let me rephrase - emoticon !

    I am right there with you, but without the excuse of vacation and grandkids. My weigh in at WW today put me right back where I was LAST September - GGGRRRRRR!!! emoticon

    But all we can do is dust ourselves off and get back up... otherwise... well, I don't want to think about otherwise! emoticon
    2138 days ago
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