Reset day 74: I'm back, grateful and making a u-turn
Thursday, August 13, 2015
I am back from vacation. It was wonderful to be away. I reconnected with an old friend I hadn't seen in years. I laughed until my face hurt. I challenged myself with some hikes. I set my feet on the North Country Trail and planted a seed. I took my first ride on a quad. I saw the hand of God and the beauty of nature. I smiled at a strangers kindness. I got off the highway and drove on old historic Route 66. I took some roads less traveled and explored - sometimes being amazed and other times just getting lost. I confirmed my belief - yes, life IS good.
All that said - for those of you who were wondering how that August 1 weigh-in went: I managed to lose .4 of a pound. Yep, only .4. However, I am happy with that. Mr Scale didn't move upwards. OK, I say I am happy with that - but I'm not. I really was hoping for at least one pound. Pounds are so hard to come by for this girl!
However, the past 12 days have been spent being off my daily routines. Why is it when I go on vacation I feel this need to take a vacation from healthy eating? I prepared. I brought healthy car snacks - however - I did bring some diet soda - my excuse - to stay awake and alert during those long drives. Where I struggle? Eating out. Snacks like late night ice cream, fudge shops, the market with fresh baked goods....I always want to order those things I don't eat at home or don't make at home. We were in upper Michigan - that meant fish. Fish is good. However, I chose to order the batter dipped fried fish! At the hotel, I found the breakfast buffet usually included over ripe bananas, bagels, waffles, fruit loops and raisin bran. Of course from that selection I chose the waffle. A couple days it was breakfast out - cinnamon rolls at the farmers market, pancakes, and other stuff I don't normally eat on which I practiced no control! Not to mention I traveled with the grandkids and of course pizza was on the menu not once, but twice. I had healthy options some of the time (sometime I actually didn't). I chose to eat the unhealthy things and then felt yucky after. The second leg of the trip was to Kansas City - which included fried chicken and bbq! Why is it that focusing on awareness and healthy choices goes out the window? I'm beginning to question if I know how to stop this cycle. I was working so hard on awareness and mindfulness - making my eating a choice - and there I was hand over fist eating.
Exercise? I had a couple ok days - but most days was light on my steps. The worst was Tuesday when we spent over 11 hours in the car driving. Not much to be done there! It is hard to exercise and drive at the same time! For some reason I can forgive myself on this one, but the food thing I am having a hard time with.
I feel incredibly bloated. I can actually see my upper belly growing larger! I don't like it. I don't know what Mr Scale says - but I know what my body is saying. Enough!!!!
So while I had a wonderful vacation, I am feeling frustrated, bloated and discouraged. How do you retain your focus while you are on vacation and the temptations are everywhere? How do you retain your focus when the people around you eat unhealthy? How do you say no to yourself when that little voice says "It's ok, you are on vacation"? What does it take to learn for me to put myself first?
Note to self for future use. This is your life - there IS no vacation! OK, enough said. Now I am going to focus on what I am doing to move towards my goal this very moment.
Perhaps it is coincidence but I read a blog today that talked about what to do when you have a bad day. It said to think of it like the GPS - when you get off the path, do what you need to do to get back on the path right away. The longer you wait, the further you have to go to get back. Well, I am making a U-turn right here, right now.
Dang I am getting sick of writing this same old blog over and over! Something's gotta change and that something is ME!