Too Frustrated to be Embarrassed!

Seriously!! I would be embarrassed about needing Pull-ups if I wasn't so --- so --- so ---- FRUSTRATED!

Okay! The surgeon removed the part of the Bladder Sling that held up the dropping Bladder because the part had come out and away from where it was suppose to be and was causing great pain.
I have been resting and trying to avoid any further problems.

Father, You have a sense of humor and if this is just meant to make me laugh, I need Your help!!!

Now I am having the same problems I had before the sling was ever put in. Every time I cough, or laugh hard enough to cause me to cough, I pee! in my pants!
Thank You, Lord, for showing me that I needed to get some pads and important "frilly" undies, because I am using them on a daily basis, now.

Abba, I want this to stop. Yes, the doctor said to watch what I eat and drink, do "Kegels", and walk more, but ------ Seriously?! ---- I am too young or too old to be " wetting" my pants.
I mean, I got the first surgery while I was in my early 40's. I expected to not have to deal with this any more!!!

I am trying hard to loose all excess weight but I know it won't come off fast because It didn't go on fast. One bite at a time! One day at a time!

The pain medicine the doctor has me on causes me to have VERY dry mouth so I am drinking water all the time.
Now, Allergy season has hit and I am taking medicine for that.

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Okay. I got that off my chest. Seriously, I can't go out in public smelling like a Toddler who needs a diaper change.

So, Abba, show me Your way. Take this 'toddler' by the hand and lead me. Please Daddy.