2 years ago I picked my goal. researched my plan and decided.
NOW I would become thin, once and for all in the next year. With mad dog determination I white knuckled and gripped my way. I dropped 20 pounds quickly, I WOULD do this!
Until a new fear set in. I had had my 3rd abdominal surgery and my stomach skin was haaaanging. Yup- gross. Think running forward and skin flapping side to side.
So I bounced up and down on the scale every month during what felt like an eternity. Until I found "my" perfect plan last March. Soon after I also read a blog entry from Indygirl. (the Indygirlteam- go! girls!) And she said losing weight slower helps your skin to firm up better. I thought yeah but Beth you are not 58. Your skin still bounces back. Not mine.
Doing "my" plan (low carb, High fat, Intermittent Fasting) does not guarantee weight loss. But it does guarantee good health. Three cheers for GOOD health!! My new goal!
Well until I broke my foot last month and had a pity party- ha! ha! I
But foot is now Dr approved healed. Been back on plan full force this last week. Got the go ahead and am adding HIIT exercises on my stationary bike this Sunday. (google this on marksdailyapple.com to learn more)
Tonight I looked in the mirror pleased to see my weight has held its own and noticed.............my post op flabby belly was..................firm? WHAT??
So yes, absolutely, Beth (Indygirl) is right! Lose slowly and you will not have that layer of hanging flab that I thought came with old age. Nope it comes from many things. Mine started post op and rapid weight loss added to it.
As I've debated with my ups and downs in this journey the word failed has come up often in my head. I decided to take responsibility for failing at losing weight. Until I realized I have failed at nothing. How could I fail if I never gave up? There was no failure, only a lot of learning and a ton of learning SUCCESS. I will continue to need to learn. If I had the answers to it all why would I need to rely on God or need Him? I'd rely on me. He keeps me honest. And He searches our hearts, He looks at our hearts not our hair and make up and the size of our ward robe.
Yup, through Him I am becoming quite successful at learning. You can't weigh that can you
And I'm losing slowly to heal the stretched out skin of a well loved body.