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I am someone I can be proud of...

Tuesday, July 07, 2015

I have to do something I don't want to do.

But if I don't do it, I am not setting myself up for success.

So this is going to be one of THOSE blogs... owning up.

I wrote a blog on May 19 in order to get myself back on track. At the time, I was able to say that though exercise had kept me from gaining, my poor food choices were keeping me from reaching that goal of getting under 200.

Since then, I have struggled and tried, but have effectively stayed OFF the rails and off the scales. I have made about 60% good food choices, and continued to exercise at about the same percentage...which is just not enough. I finally had the courage to get back on the scale by saying to myself, "Erin, I love you...and you are only hurting yourself by neglecting the things you know you need. You can do this."

I knew my weight would be up... and frankly, I was a little surprise that it was not higher than it was. But DARN IT, I have to re-lose 15 pounds. I don't see it as failure. It truly is an opportunity to love and encourage myself right through this rough patch, but again...DARN IT.

I had the impulse to just wait, and not publicly admit to the gain. But that is not what this is about. This WHOLE journey is about being real. It is okay. I can do it. I am worth it. I have come too far to let myself down.

So, as soon as I hit POST BLOG...I am going back to my Spark Page to adjust my weight. I have to be honest with myself so that I am someone I can be proud of.

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  • no profile photo CD7070285
    Thanks for posting this. It makes me feel better about my own struggles with weight loss.
    2023 days ago
    Keep positive Erin. Keep your mind heading in a good direction no matter how big or small the step forward may be. Positive thinking can take you very far.
    2053 days ago
    Been there done that. I need to re-lose 18 pounds this time. Let's do the work and create our healthy life style!
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  • no profile photo CD15145828

    Thanks for this blog! I love your transparency and desire for accountability.

    You go, girl !!
    2056 days ago
    You should be really proud for being so honest with yourself. It can be extremely hard. But I really think this is the key to success in so much of life...and particularly weight loss. Stay honest and you'll get there. I'm sure of it.
    2057 days ago
    This does happen, but good to be honest, I have a problem admitting things too, doing a little better each day. emoticon
    2058 days ago
    emoticon Sometimes owning up in those moments can be the best push forward. Remember that you can do it! It sucks to have to relose the weight but you did great just by getting on the scale and getting prepared to move forward again.
    2059 days ago
  • SALLEN78
    Congratulations on your courage! I have had to re-lose 75 pounds 3 times & am now working on the 4th time. I know the frustrations of having to do it all again, but I also know the exhilaration of reaching those goals - and I know we both know what needs to be done and can do it! emoticon
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