Hello lovelies! I know it's been a little while. I've been doing my best, working hard, and reevaluating every bit of my life in the past few months. It's exhausting!
I joined a gym! Shane and I went out to look at a few places in the city here where we work and see if there was anything we liked. Because he is starting a new job soon and his vow to work out with me will be impossible to fulfill most days, we settled on Planet Fitness. It's $20 a month for both of us. (I got the Black Card, which allows me access to other locations, plus hydromassage that I think will be great for my back and hips but I haven't had the guts to try it yet - and I get to take a guest with me every time I go, which for now is Shane.) It was a total gut thing more than anything else. The fact that Planet Fitness is open 24 hours a day most days (and the other location is open 24 hours a day EVERY day), Anytime Fitness was booted out. Plus...Anytime is placed in a plaza between a yogurt place, a sub shop and a Chinese buffet. NO! Just NO! The rec center just didn't seem to suit me. It felt old and I already feel old without any help, thanks!
I did my first two days at the gym last week. I still can't do much yet, but it's better than nothing, right? I did 15 minutes on the elliptical and some weight training machines on the first day. On Saturday we went to the other location and I did 20 minutes on the elliptical and a round of ab work in their 12-minute ab section. It feels like SO little to me. My brain is still in the 6-day-a-week gym rat mode, but my body aches and my ankle is barely holding up and the arthritis in my knees keeps telling me to slow down. It's funny how you forget how hard it is to start until you have to do it again. I'm wearing my brace faithfully and tryng to make myself go slow. I know that 20 minutes on the elliptical is my cap right now from how I felt Saturday...so if I can do that 3 days a week and keep my calories in check and throw in some weight training to build muscle I should still squeek out a win this month. I sure friggin' hope so! I'll know more Thursday when I have my informal weigh-in.
I'm getting my intake in check! It's been hard. You forget this part too! I have to eliminate everything from the house that tempts me until I'm strong enough to resist. I've already told Shane not to bring soda in (thankfully, he just quit his weekend Coke stocking job, so that should help) and I'm slowly cutting out the sweet tea as well. Back to nothing but water and coffee and Soy or Almond milk. I've switched over to Almond Milk or Almond Milk creamer in my coffee in the morning. Cutting out that sugary creamer has been hard! One thing at a time, right? Slow and steady wins the race! I'm banning sweets from the house for a while and limiting sugar consumption as much as possible -- bring back the FRUIT!
I'm working on cooking nearly every night this week and packing my lunches every day. It may not be the healthiest meal options each time, but it's better than ordering out. Shane did mess up and buy white bread this time at the store, so that's on the list to go next. Back to wheat bread and/or wraps.
More than anything, I've got it in my planner to log my food and water intake every single day this week. Good or bad, I need to keep myself accountable.
I am still having to hold myself back on things. I downloaded the Giam (sp?) channel on my smart TV in the bedroom last week. I really would love to do some soft yoga a few times a week, but I think I should wait one or two more weeks before trying and should probably limit myself to once a week to start. Too much too quickly is what will do me in for good. Slow and steady. Slow and steady.
As we all know, there are holidays coming up. I plan to be active as much as possible and when I'm not being active, to be a recluse. No family parties. No crazy fun desserts to try. I need to remember that holidays are NOT about the food...they are about the company. If that means I have to be away from everyone for a few days because I can't control myself right now, then so be it. Honestly, I've been hiding for a while now and I'm okay with hiding a bit longer until I get my head right. At least I'm not hiding from myself anymore.
PLAN FOR THE WEEK:
Gym - 20 m elliptical; full body ST
Pizza for dinner (I have my calories planned)
Tator Tot Casserole (I will have to watch the serving sizes!)
Gym - 20m elliptical; ab workout
Finish book and start setting business goals
Taco night (I will have a salad with a few corn chips thrown in)
Gym - 20m elliptical; full body ST
Grilled Cheese & Tomato Soup (watch serving sizes!)
Family Trip to Summersville Lake
Picnic? Plan ahead!
Cookout (Think ahead!)
Trip to take one boy to Grandma's house. (the other will the following week)
Plan for next week!
Best thing to happen this week?
I have two!
(1) I became a new mommy to Link!
He's just 7 weeks old and is in full on baby mode. He's adorable and already loving on everyone - even our 90 pound husky/elkhound dog! Brave kid! I cannot wait to go home and cuddle him!
(2) I booked a weekend away to a quiet lake.
Shane and I will be getting away for a few days. Not sure if this will be a great trip or not so great one. Nothing is fixed right now. It's better, but it's not fixed. We are working on it. But the time away should give us plenty of time to be honest and talk and think and work through some issues. I'll be asking our counselor for homework for the trip since we'll have plenty time alone to hash things out without the kids walking in to the discussions.
Hope everyone has a good week! I'm going to go get my first glass of water well aware that I need to get in a habit of starting each day with at least one.