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Sunday, June 28, 2015



I've traveled this journey for so long I could walk it in my sleep and backwards. But I haven't ever reached a goal i've set myself. Why? I give up and I give in. When the going gets tough, like the third day, I quit on myself, Then I get disgusted and start "fresh" again. What does that accomplish? Nothing. Nada. Zip. I sit here at my highest weight, and I feel like i've let myself down. I say i'm going to change this time, I've got the tools i'm ready, then when the going gets tough I quit yet again. Is this time going to be different? Will I succeed this time where i've failed before? I don't know and I won't know till I try. I have to give this a go, my cholesterol is up and now i'm on meds, changes are needed, this isn't just a fling anymore this is starting to tell on me. It isn't a whisper any longer, it is shouting that it needs help, I need help, So I come to Spark, just like i've always done. I come here for the tools, for the support, for the fun, and just so I can be me. I can check in when I need to and brows as I see fit. I like that about Spark. Freedom to be me and yet someone to hold my hand when I so need it. So I leave this blog today and I begin yet again.

Michelle
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  • KENDRACARROLL
    You have the tools & yes, you can do this. You did it once before and you can do it again.
    This 21-day sugar detox thing has been going around Spark lately. Maybe worth checking into. These things definitely help with cravings.
    Glad you're still here, Michelle.
    You've got this!
    1831 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3934996
    Angel you may give up or even stop and think but God does not keep count.. It is like the spider that my Daddy use to tell me and it goes like this...
    The Spider Web
    Once there was a Spider who looked for the perfect place for a home.. He came across a cave that overlooked the whole town and the most wonderful sunset.. He climbed up the side and jumped and missed and again he jumped and he tried all day until he just could not jump again.. as he sat there and rested and was ready to give up he got a second wind and tried one more time and he made it and then he built his home. As he looked at the beautiful sunset and smiled as he watched the sun fall.. He was thankful that he tried one more time..
    The moral of this story is: If you don't get things the first time or the second time.. Rest and give it the best shot and you can make it.. Never give up through Christ you can do anything..
    So rest refresh and go again... You will make it and you have time to make changes and you have the choice.. This time look at it from a new angle.. and ask do I need this or do I want that.. In his Love and Grace Just Me emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1835 days ago
  • B-N-ME
    Michelle, you express the same thing many do, I know you can do this...
    Give yourself an extra push, post a vision board, grab a friend to help you keep accountable, you've got it in you!!

    Check out the thread this morning, what Ive posted may just help!!

    Whatever I can do to nudge you along, let me know

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    1835 days ago
  • HMBROWN1
    I completely understand but I also have no answers. We will do better this time. We must believe that and we must work towards that. Best wishes!
    1835 days ago
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