Tuesday, June 09, 2015
Today I woke up, did my normal routine, and part of that is stepping in the scale. I stand there and count to six ( it gets really picky if you even think about moving), I look down and it says 309.4 and that I lost 1.8 lbs. yay. I am now less than 10 lbs away from my first goal of 299. And less than 30 lbs of my goal for Christmas.
Now for another way to measure my success, my pants are fitting just right, it not a little to loose. Yay!!! Yesterday, a friend at work told me that I looked like I had lost weight. Yay!!! Not only these things are what is making me feel good, but they way I feel in my own skin.
For once in my life I feel like my goals are attainable. I also love they way I am feeling about my body. I have always had body image issues, so for me to feel like I want my husband to see my stomach, that's amazing.
When I reach my goal I will be 5 lbs away from my massive weight loss that I took on , using medifast, about four years ago. But I will have come further than before.
I started medifast after a guy broke up with me because I wasn't losing weight fast enough. He also had a life time goal for me to be 200 lbs. at that point I was 103 lbs away from that. I did really well on that diet, until my mom almost died, my birthday, and bar hopping, all the same day.
While I support people using medifast, I learned that it wasn't a healthy way for ME to lose the weight and keep it off. So now I'm trying it this way. I have been on spark people before and I'm back. I find that I am more motivated because I'm doing this for me and not for the public opinion of me.
I want to lose weight so that I can feel better in my own skin, live longer, live a fuller life without my pants being fuller, to have children, to have a happy and healthy pregnancy in the future, to be able to run around with my husband and children, and to be happy in my day to day life.
I may have said the same thing but in a different way. I feel that my weight has kept me from becoming pregnant, so before I have children, I want to learn to be healthy so I can teach them to be healthy.
So, now a question for you. Should I aim for the weight that is said to be healthy for someone of my height? What about my bone structure, I have quite a wide frame. What is a healthy weight for me?