In all my past weight loss attempts, regain was what happened when I'd lost quite a bit of weight, 20-40 pounds, got stuck, got frustrated, gave up and regained ALL the weight, PLUS more. That was the only way I understood weight loss journeys. The people that lost their weight, got to goal, and maintained seemed like unicorns, they didn't seem like they could be real.
When I joined Spark in 2009, I saw that they weren't unicorns, they were actually real people that worked very hard to lose their weight and keep it off. I was so lucky to become Spark friends with some incredible people, and them giving that friendship and support back really cemented the fact that they were REAL, hard working people... and that if I tried hard enough I could be one of them someday.
So on this journey, that I started in March of 2012, regain took on a whole knew meaning. Regain was no longer gaining all the weight back. It was regaining some, realizing what was happening, and doing something to turn it around.
I have come to find out that 185 is my comfortable weight. Life isn't totally
's at that weight, but it was good enough for me to feel like I could let my guard down. I regained from 185 up to as high as 199, then to go back down. Getting right to the boarder of Twoterville was enough to get me turned around and going in the right direction again. My lowest weight to date is 181, but I was that weight for literally 2 seconds. My lowest maintainable weight (that I saw for more than a day LOL) was 185. So I have regained 10-15 pounds multiple times, only to have to lose them again.
What I am realizing is that being comfortable doesn't mean I have to regain. How are all those people maintaining their goal weights? No doubt they are comfortable and PROUD of being at their goal weights, and they want to stay there. But they manage to maintain and stay on top of things. For some reason, I get to 185 and think *phew*, I can slack off again. I wind up quitting counting calories, portion control and I end up turning to more junk food than I would be eating if I were actively trying to lose. When I do that, I am doing all the habits that lead me to be 272 pounds. That's not okay. If I get comfortable at 185 and want a break, okay fine. But a break should mean MAINTAINING that weight. Not eating everything til I hit 199 and the alarm sounds and I go back to work.
Finally realizing this and now writing this out is going to help me more than you can imagine. I had to see first hand what I was doing so that I could correct it. I do want to go farther than 185, I want to see what 170 feels like. I might even dip my toe into 160ville, I want to experience all of these things. But going "on and off" all the time is getting me nowhere. Whether it's losing weight or maintenance, it requires diligence and hard work!
So regardless of my weight, and whether I am at a place where I want to lose or where I just want to hang out at a weight, it still requires portion control, calorie counting (my preferred method), exercise and a healthy attitude. It does not mean to go off track and eat everything until it's time to get back to it. A day off where you can eat whatever and not worry about it is okay from time to time... but not for several weeks that send you up 10 pounds!
Just when I thought I had learned enough about myself to get to goal, and stay there... I realize there is always so much more to learn.