Tuesday, May 19, 2015
Lots of working going on right now in my life. I finished up my last Senior Session, but I have a family session and a senior mini coming up this weekend, plus my gallery viewing and sales session. I really hope they buy some products! Mostly because I want to see these pictures printed because I'm so proud of them...but also because we need the money right now. I need to get some advertising out there so that people know about my services and I can't do that if I don't have money to advertise with, ya know!?
Today I'm working on a grant proposal for my full-time job. Not my favorite thing in the world, but not the worst thing about my job either. Hopefully this funding goes through and I can help at least 2 more people get their homes repaired and modified so they can finally leave the nursing home and go home to be with their families!
Also still working on the health and fitness side. My legs have been feeling better. Yesterday walking around felt almost normal! I'm thinking I might take the doggies out tonight if I feel up to it. Maybe I'll take them tomorrow night too when the house gets quiet without the kids. I'm really wanting to start doing some things other than walking, but I should probably wait for some indication from my doctor that it's okay to try other things first.
My appointment is Thursday. I'm worried. I have a lot of good moments now, but I still have some missteps too. Yesterday it was candy and seconds at dinner. Not good. But I ate a super healthy lunch that I precooked this weekend and it filled me up so I didn't need a second snack yesterday. So that part was good. And the walk to/from the garage wasn't too much of a pain and felt pretty good, actually. I guess some good/some bad is better than the all bad days I was having last month! Still crossing fingers for that 8 pound loss! I want to feel like I'm getting back on track!
Tonight I'll probably make Skillet Pasta. Tomorrow I'll eat my feelings or won't eat or will be able to just eat some leftovers and go to bed. Thursday is the band concert, so we'll need something quick and easy -- maybe we'll grab some Subway if I can budget for it. Friday I'll attempt fish and veg, but I always avoid fish and veg night...I just don't like cooking fish (though it always tastes good...I have no clue what that's about...). I want to do something fun with the boys this weekend, but, again, I have to work. It is a long weekend, though, right? So maybe we can go camping Sunday...although the thought of sleeping on the ground right now sounds awful...maybe we'll camp at home and do a movie marathon! *lol*
I'm still sad.
Dreaming the past few nights has been awful.
I miss him.
I miss having someone to talk to.
My family is in full "I told you so" mode since my mother decided to gossip to everyone about me.
I'm angry and bitter and I really need to journal like crazy for the next few days to get it out of me.