This is when it could unravel.......
Tuesday, May 05, 2015
I got back from vacation Friday night. A week in Florida on Marco Island behind me. I was a bit worried about the week, however, I did AWESOME!
My friend I went with wanted a place with a workout room when we booked this trip - so we are somewhat on the same page. I must admit, I only visited the workout room three times in the 6 days we were there - mainly on rainy days when I couldn't be outdoors walking.
I got up early each day and headed down the beach. I walked about 5 miles each morning - which really didn't seem like 5 miles at all because there were so many distractions along the way! Much better for me than 5 miles on the treadmill where I watch each tenth of a mile slowly tick away!
After my walk, I ate an orange or some sort of fruit to quench my thirst which the water didn't seem to do! Then I showered and got in the kitchen and scrambled some eggs with some fresh spinach, mushrooms and feta cheese. If I was really hungry I added a slice of 12 grain bread to my breakfast. A couple times I added some ham pieces.
Not to mention those afternoons in the pool! No lap swimming - but moving! Lunch was usually fresh fruit and half a sandwich.
Dinner, we ate out most nights. I stuck with the seafood, which was fresh in most places, except for the one night I had chicken at a Mexican restaurant and our last night where I had the thin crust pizza.
I came home with a weight loss - which made me very happy since I had gained weight earlier in the week - and was worried I'd post an even larger gain!
After returning home, I unpacked my bags and repacked to attend a board meeting across the state. There were no groceries in my house! It was slim pickings eating - but I had some frozen salmon & frozen veggies which did the trick Friday night. Saturday I prepared my reports and had to get rolling. I was hungry - there was no breakfast food - I grabbed a sleeve of girl scout cookies - the shortbread ones - and ate the WHOLE thing before I even made it out of town! Once I got there, there was a fundraiser function - which had food - so I had a hotdog, chips and pop. Not exactly on my meal plan. I thought I could make it work - but with all those cookies for breakfast, I was over on calories. Dinner was eating out with other board members and was prime rib with a baked potato. I was hoping I didn't do too bad..... but knew it wasn't really good! Thank goodness I at least got my exercise in early that morning before leaving home!
Sunday was the board meeting - breakfast was bagels, muffins, some so called fresh fruit which was frozen and really smushy! We pushed through our agenda instead of breaking for lunch so we could wrap up early. Afterwards a group of us stopped to a diner to eat - which was diner food. I had the Flint style coney dogs which I really didn't like - they were topped with the cheese whiz type sauce - and of course came with fries. So I ate terrible again! I got home in the early evening and decided to eat out instead of getting groceries and cooking at a late hour. I grabbed a sub from Subway. Tons of carbs that day - not many veggies and fruit!
Monday was my first day back at work - swamped! Not to mention, another sub for lunch at my desk and dinner out that night with my son at the Pizza Ranch which involved broasted chicken instead of the pizza - which is probably not any healthier than the pizza! My eating is spiraling out of control!
On the scale this morning - a 4 lb weight gain from where I was Saturday morning. REALLY!
So I grabbed a can of soup for lunch from home and headed out the door only to be greeted by Krispy Kreme donuts at work. Yep, I had one.
This is where it gets testy and trick ..... I can continue my pattern of crappy eating because it is easy right now - OR I can go to the grocery store on my way home from work, buy some healthy food and take the time to cook and prepare things for the rest of the week.
Funny how I was feeling so good Saturday morning when Mr Scale flashed that number - and today I am feeling so defeated!
Yep, this girl is going to the store! Back to my egg scrambles for breakfast and healthier meals. I just need to dig deep and get the discipline to DO IT!
Of course there is that little voice that says go home and walk the dog, do the groceries later - but then it will be so late the voice will say "Eat out Barb, get groceries tomorrow......" If that plays out like it usually does, tomorrow will never come! Everyday it will be tomorrow and I will be so far from my path I will have an even harder time finding my way back.
The dog walk is going to wait. The groceries are coming first..... because I come first - ahead of the dog! If it is too late for the dog walk, I can walk on my treadmill and the poor guy, well, he will have to suck it up and wait until tomorrow!
I am cutting the thread now. No more unraveling. This is stopping right here, right now. I deserve better.