Desperately needing encouragement
Thursday, April 23, 2015
Well, I joined WW Meetings and Tuesday would have been my week 3 weigh in. I lost three pounds the first week. I felt fine. Not hungry or anything.
I was weighing myself at home and I noticed that the scale didn't seem to be budging anymore, despite strictly following the plan and exercising. I was frustrated. I am frustrated. And then last Thursday night came around. I had a lot of opportunities for free food and booze. I didn't really want to go make nice with people at a banquet as I was kind of PMSy, so I took up on the free booze. And started eating more than I would've on the plan. Not completely overdoing it, but definitely overdoing it. And I didn't remember what all I'd eaten, so I decided not to track. And things turned into a downward spiral from there. I was super depressed and fatigued. I had trouble getting out of bed. I started going crazy overeating and drinking sugary beverages--something I never do. I skipped days at the gym. Days became a week. And now here I am. I went to the doctor, and on their scale I've gained another ten lbs. I can see the weight gain in my face now.
So my plan is to track 6 weeks EVERYTHING (even free stuff) consistently for my follow up visit with my doctor.
One of my hard obstacles I'm going to have will be visiting my family next week, some of whom haven't seen me since Christmas, aka 20 lbs ago. And I'm ashamed. I need to tell them about this issue because I want support in making healthy choices and sticking to my triathlon training plan while I'm there. I literally cannot stand to look at myself in the mirror.
Please, please any encouragement will do. I'm so ashamed.