So on Monday I stepped on the scale.
Then I nearly had a heart attack.
At the end of the year I was hovering at the 240 mark - some times a few pounds lower, some times higher. Well, in 4 months I have inched - no flown - back up to 260. That is 5 extra pounds a month.
And I knew I was gaining.
I could see it in my face. I could feel it going up the steps. I could feel it when I went for my walks. Yet, I didn't do anything about it. Every now and then it was a "time to get back on track day"... and sadly, it was just that. A day, maybe two.
Well, I realized I could throw in the towel - just continue down the path I'd be going. Eating whatever I wanted and not caring. But fortunately, I've come to realize that I'm worth much more than that. I'm worth more than being uncomfortable in my own skin. I'm worth more than eating junk, just b/c I want it. I'm worth more than the lazy attitude.
I'm worth the struggle.
Just as you are too.
Because life isn't always easy. So many of my friends here and in my "real" world are suffering with sickness, loss, financial problems, relationship woes... there are a lot of battles that we face daily. Taking care of ourselves - that shouldn't be a battle. It should be something we embrace... because we are worth it.
So, I finally moved my ticker back up. It hurt to do that. Honestly! But, the time has come. I have learned to love myself and therefore, I'm going to prove it to myself. No more excuses. Sure, there will be some slips and falls, but I'll just pick myself up and brush myself off. And lucky for me, my friend "Shrinky-dink" is ready to have some friendly competition as we are both at the same weight :)
I love you guys. I appreciate the continued support that I get from all of you. And for each one of you who is trying to lose weight like I am, let's go kick some ass.... and for those of you who are maintaining - you're my heroes, keep up the great work!
Let's all have a great day!