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We are definitely worth the struggle

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

So on Monday I stepped on the scale.
Then I nearly had a heart attack.
At the end of the year I was hovering at the 240 mark - some times a few pounds lower, some times higher. Well, in 4 months I have inched - no flown - back up to 260. That is 5 extra pounds a month.
And I knew I was gaining.
I could see it in my face. I could feel it going up the steps. I could feel it when I went for my walks. Yet, I didn't do anything about it. Every now and then it was a "time to get back on track day"... and sadly, it was just that. A day, maybe two.
Well, I realized I could throw in the towel - just continue down the path I'd be going. Eating whatever I wanted and not caring. But fortunately, I've come to realize that I'm worth much more than that. I'm worth more than being uncomfortable in my own skin. I'm worth more than eating junk, just b/c I want it. I'm worth more than the lazy attitude.
I'm worth the struggle.
Just as you are too.
Because life isn't always easy. So many of my friends here and in my "real" world are suffering with sickness, loss, financial problems, relationship woes... there are a lot of battles that we face daily. Taking care of ourselves - that shouldn't be a battle. It should be something we embrace... because we are worth it.
So, I finally moved my ticker back up. It hurt to do that. Honestly! But, the time has come. I have learned to love myself and therefore, I'm going to prove it to myself. No more excuses. Sure, there will be some slips and falls, but I'll just pick myself up and brush myself off. And lucky for me, my friend "Shrinky-dink" is ready to have some friendly competition as we are both at the same weight :)
I love you guys. I appreciate the continued support that I get from all of you. And for each one of you who is trying to lose weight like I am, let's go kick some ass.... and for those of you who are maintaining - you're my heroes, keep up the great work!
Let's all have a great day!
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    YOU ARE WORTH IT.....even if I am reading this a month later......one thing that remains the same is......YOU ARE WORTH IT!

    I am so glad that you see that, feel that and hold on to that. Who knows why some of us just continue to struggle and lose and gain the same pounds over and over again and then some. What I do know is, it isn't that we want to be overweight. So, I have to believe that our time will come when we are truly ready to tackle our demons and get down to business. I have been hovering around losing and gaining the same weight for about 9 months now. I am the only one that can change that so clearly I have work to do from the inside out. We will get there! Hugs....Nora
    1986 days ago
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    2011 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    Yes you are worth the effort that weight loss takes! It is not an easy process but it is so worth it. Keep on pushing to be the best that you can be. Moving that ticker is always a good wake up call. Love to move it down, don't like it when I have to move it up so it makes me work harder to stay at the weight I want.
    Keep up the good work and you are right about the awesome people here that support and encourage and are always here for one another through the good and the bad! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2012 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8054794
    emoticon emoticon The turtle or the Hare...which one are we going to be? LOL
    emoticon I have no doubt.
    emoticon I didn't want to move my ticker back up either. I fought it for a long time. But when I inched up to 260, I knew I had to give in, and get real.

    So here's to "Getting Real". We know what we need to do, we just need to DO IT!
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    2013 days ago
    Oh Diane, it is heartbreaking when you finally face the music sometimes. I know that you and I have discussed sugar addiction in the past. I nearly let it get a hold of me again in the last few months, and did slip, and managed to put on nearly 10 pounds in the space of a few weeks!!! (Not so much falling off the wagon as zip lining off of it).

    Luckily, the lady who owns the wedding dress shop rang to say that my dress is ready (picking it up tomorrow), which shocked me back into action, I quit sugar and bread, AGAIN, have been going to zumba classes every week, and have returned to salads, fruit and carrots for snacks. The weight has come back off quickly, thank goodness, but it was really scary and depressing there for a while, and reminds me not to be complacent. Overeating rubbish food is my default setting, where I feel very comfortable. It is a tangible effort to make better choices for myself every day, and sometimes it is just a bit too much effort (I keep picturing the wedding dress to keep me on track!)

    I'm sure you will be kind to yourself this time. I am thinking of you and sending warm hugs and wishes, and a huge dollop of motivation to kick this thing so that you can be where you want to be, weightwise. xx
    Debs x
    2013 days ago
  • ARAZA30
    Great Blog. TY for sharing.
    2013 days ago
    What an honest, well spoken blog, Diane.
    You could have been speaking about me. I have been struggling for some time to eat healthy again and get back to exercising but I can't seem to find the motivation. Recently, I have been dealing with back problems that make doing almost anything painful.

    We do need to value ourselves more than we do. We are so worth it!

    Hang in there my Spark Friend! We can do this!
    2013 days ago
    Amen Sweet Sister!!
    You have given me the courage to move mine back up as well.
    emoticon We are worth it! ALL of us!
    2014 days ago
  • _BABE_
    I still think we are living in parallel universes or something because I am with you every step of the way.

    I, too have gained and cannot string together more than 2 days of being on track to save my life.

    Thanks for another great blog that hit home and reminded me we are worth it.

    I saw a glimpse of Dr. Oz the other day and a disc jockey who is losing weight said he turned his head around when he started to think of it as a disease that he need to treat.
    Obesity needs our attention just as if we had any other problem....which we would attend to pronto...right?

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    2014 days ago
    What an honest, courageous account of what you've been going through. Since I joined the Spark community a year ago, there have been times when, after losing and regaining and continuing with my bad habits, I have felt so humiliated and have just wanted to disappear and quietly get on with my bad choices and the misery they caused. I very much admire you for taking a hard look at what has happened and getting yourself back together. Every day is a new chance, and I'm so grateful that the days just keep coming! We're in this together, my friend, and we WILL prevail! Thanks for the inspiration today!
    2014 days ago
    You are worth it. We are all worth it. The trick is to remember to keep loving yourself during the bad times.
    You also need to remember that "you are enough."
    2015 days ago
    Yes, we are definitely worth the struggle.
    By moving your ticker where it belongs you've accepted your reality and have set a starting point. First step done well!
    Going forward, despite life's inevitable ups and downs, you know what to do…
    Go get 'em SparkFriend!
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    2015 days ago
    Honesty is the best way to approach dealing with gain, so kudos to you for acknowledging it, for attempting to understand it and building a plan on how to conquer it.

    Most of us have been there. A change of eating and lifestyle is NOT easy - or more than 5% of people would keep the weight they lose OFF, but if you approach it as a learning experience and recommit to healthy habits you will get there.

    Stay strong! :)
    2015 days ago
    "Self-love is the only weight loss tool that works in the long run."
    Forgive me for not remembering who said those wise words but it's probably the most important quote I've heard about weight loss and your blog reminded me of it. And the best thing is that we all possess this tool. We can all love ourselves if we want to and put our well-being among our top priorities. And that's what you are going to do because you deserve it. Moving that ticker up was a hard thing but it's a crucial step. It's the realization and the acceptance of the responsibility. You've made the first step and that's always the hardest.
    Let's keep on trying and get up every time we fall!
    2015 days ago
    Ohhh, how frustrating. Why does it come off so slowly and go on so quickly, and so effortlessly? Sigh. But you know what to do, now that you are ready. And you'll be feeling lighter and bouncier in no time!

    2015 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10895053
    Awww, you ARE so worthit! I love your out-with-it honesty and I can fit myself right in it too. I'm still 30# up and hating it and wanting to get rid of them too. I set my ticker up also! Awww, sisters we are! Hugs to you and emoticon
    2015 days ago
    You are worth it. emoticon emoticon
    2015 days ago
    I think we all can relate to having to accept that we had a mis-step but Diane, I know you are strong and will push forward. Love you lots!
    2015 days ago
    We can do this!!
    2015 days ago
  • SUMMER2203
    it is really hard to go back and re-lose the weight that you have already lost...but you know that you can do it!!!! now you know where you are, and the scale will be moving in the right direction in no time!!! this is definitely not a quick and easy process, but we learn something from all of our mistakes, right?
    2015 days ago
    You ARE beautiful, you ARE worth it, and I'm rooting for you to get that scale moving back in the right direction!!
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    2015 days ago
    It sucks to have to move that ticker up! I had to do that earlier this year...and I had to move it 80 lbs :( You're right...we ARE worth the effort it takes to become healthy and comfortable. I'm at 260 also...here's to heading back in the right direction!!!
    2015 days ago
    What a great blog!!! Thanks for sharing!
    2015 days ago
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