This is the way it is

I've definitely been losing focus on the NN challenge.

My anxieties are at an all-time high. Work is really, really bad. I'm really upset with how unfair management is being... to me and to other people. Decisions are being made that are really demoralizing... we're all pawns in the game, and not people. Urgh!!!

Tomorrow, I'm going for a hysterectomy and will take 6-8 weeks of recovery time. The timing is really good because it'll get me away from the toxic workplace. Hopefully, I can return in a better state of mind.

Since I won't be able to exercise for 6 weeks (only walking) I stopped doing my regular gym activity. Bad mistake! With the absence of this exercise, I now am living how very important it was to me to keep my sanity!

Live and learn! My focus now is controlling my daily calorie intake... no more rationalizing going over because of the calories I'm burning at the gym!