PMA all day
Monday, March 30, 2015
^^ that's what I keep telling myself anyway. Positive mental attitude, despite any outside circumstances.
This weekend, yesterday in specific, was a huge struggle. I live with my younger sister (who has never lived on her own until now) and we just can't seem to get along. I do everything I can to have a good time with her.. I try to include her with my group of friends, I train with her everyday at the gym and prep food with her etc. etc. and I think that is one of the main problems. We spend WAY too much time together and are very fundamentally different.
There are things about me that she dislikes (the fact that I can wait a little longer than she can to do the dishes, for starters :P) and she makes those things VERY clear VERY often. I can't take the constant criticism and the nitpicking is driving me INSANE! She is very high strung and it is causing me to be anxious and upset when I'm normally a very understanding, chill person. I'm the type of person to let things roll off and let it go..and she's the type to hold it over your head for days/weeks/months.
Not really sure how to go about fixing the situation except for to spend less time together and to ask to her just let me live my life without her constant intercession. I know she just cares about me, but she doesn't know how to show it in a way that is appropriate or healthy for our relationship. Definitely not saying I'm perfect or not at fault in all this.. it's just a big mess.
Last night I just binge watched Netflix (Parks and Rec.. best show ever) in bed and kept to myself. Today I'm trying to just keep the focus on work, keep a positive attitude and keep moving. I know we are family and fighting "like sisters" is probably normal..especially for roommates... but I just want life to be NORMAL AND EASY WHY IS THAT NEVER AN OPTION
Before we ever talk about this tonight, I definitely want to get my workout in. I'm going to harness all this frustration and take it out on the weights. Training chest/back tonight plus some HIIT to finish up. THEN we can discuss this junk. I refuse to let my emotions affect my workouts.. UNLESS they are beneficial
Hope everyone has a good Monday!