WOW. Do you ever stop to look around and see how far off track you've gotten and just stun yourself?
My last blog post was pretty sad - I was fussy over a gain on the scale. I think I let myself use the excuse of being sick to get lazy again, to "take it easy" on the exercise. No! No no, no! BAD Jessica.
So here I am, over two weeks later. Thankfully I haven't backslid too much. Last week I actually saw a pretty wild loss of 7 lbs, but wouldn't you know it? I gained 3 back. And this time I know it's not water weight. I haven't been tracking, I haven't been working out. Honestly, the exercise and not getting it isn't the worst - it's not tracking.
So we're back to that again. I'm back to trying to eat at home most of the time, to cutting out condiments and excess bread as much as possible. Today I'm back on my usual breakfast of eggs and toast and a little coffee, despite the fact that there's a maple walnut coffee cake in the kitchen (which I am refusing to make eye contact with).
So in an effort to get in a regular schedule I have decided - decreed, even - that Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays are going to be my Gym Nights. I work until 8 pm on Tuesdays and Thursdays most of the time, so I can't always get to the Y before they close AND manage to eat dinner. Once I get comfy with M-W-F, I might start going on the other days in the morning before the library opens.
I'm also going to get back to blogging regularly. Being on this site, participating in the community and witnessing all of you go through the same journey - that kept me on goal. And I refuse to get to August and not be much lighter than I was when I started! I refuse to get on a plane and panic for 12 hours while I fly over the Pacific Ocean! I'm going to be in much better condition and be able to keep up with my tall, wiry Australian boyfriend, dang it!
So right now I'm sitting at 349. I want to be 300 or below in August. And I KNOW I can do it.
To those of you who have been sending me supportive messages, thank you SO MUCH. You are the park rangers who led me back to the trail and I love you guys.