A coworker came across some photos of me from 2010. I checked my records and I was 250 pounds then... I also found a couple from 2012 and I was also 250. I figured out in that time in between, I got to my highest weight of 272. Crazy to think I have been on Spark since 2009 that I have record of my weight even when I wasn't doing my best.
The craziest part about these particular photos is I remember them being posted on facebook way back when, and I instantly untagged myself from them. I didn't want to see those photos and I didn't want anyone else seeing them either. The crazy part is, if you are my facebook friend you know what I look like... so the pictures at the time wouldn't be so shocking. But I honestly think I was in denial at that point, if I didn't have to face the pictures, I could pretend I wasn't "that big" and I didn't really look like that. I know it seems silly, but I was a little silly back then.
I was so excited that she was able to put them on a flash drive so that I could keep them. I do not have many photos of myself heavier and that is why you constantly see the same before pics in my updated photos. I only have a handful to choose from. I for sure want to make a new collage or two, hopefully when I get down to 180 I can not only use these "new" before pics but have some new progress to share with everyone as well.
These pictures seriously blow my mind, I don't even recognize myself! (I used to dye my hair various colors before also lol)
What is craziest to me is that these pictures that I was once so ashamed of and went to great lengths to make sure no one saw, are now a precious gift to me.
I was so excited to be able to have these photos, and instead of hiding them away I was posting them on facebook and of course now Spark, saying "check this out!"
It's just proof that these weight loss journeys are really a journey... things change, our perspectives change and when we finally are succeeding we learn we have a lot to be proud of!
In other news, my Spark friend Lynn has issued 2 challenges for anyone who wants to join one or both. They are ongoing with no time limit. One has to do with measurements and one has to do with fitting into a pair of jeans or shorts that are too small to fit us no. She explains it much better than I do, and you can see that in her blog/video blog here:
I have a pair of size 12 jeans, and we all know a number is just a number. You can find one pair of pants that fits and says one size and a pair of pants that fits and is a larger/smaller size... it never fails. But obviously if it doesn't fit now, and it eventually fits, that is a huge victory! It doesn't really matter what the label says but being able to put them on is going to feel like a million bucks. I wear a size 16 in the exact same pair of shorts, I loved them so much I bought them in a size 12. I have not started yet, I need to find the dang shorts and take a photo, but I look forward to the day I will be able to get those babies on and wear them in public, hopefully to Disneyland. I also might join in on the ribbon challenge. So I will post that photo in the future when I get things going, but in the mean time if it sounds like something you might be interested in, head on over to Lynn's blog and check it out! Even if you aren't interested in participating, you can still head on over and give her so awesome encouragement!