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Going To Give It 6 Months...

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

For me and my journey, I do not believe in setting timeline goals. I learned the hard way that saying I want to lose XX pounds this month, or I want to weigh XXX by such and such date doesn't work for me. Usually, when I set those goals, I set them too high, secretly knowing I can't hit them, then when I don't hit them I feel like a failure. So I don't do that anymore and I haven't in years. I know that technique works so well for some, just not me. emoticon

I would say the first year of my journey, I was actively trying to lose weight. I was working towards that goal each and every day. I had bad days and slip ups and all of that stuff, but it really was my main focus. For the last almost year and a half, I've just been kinda floating along. I have been maintaining in a 10ish pound range... and that has happened because I have weeks where I am actively working towards weight loss, then I have weeks of being off track. The good news is, by having those good weeks I have pretty much maintained my loss and if I were at my goal weight, that would be the ultimate goal and the greatest accomplishment. But since I'm not at goal weight it can start to make you feel like a failure.

I think I have been a little down on myself. I am proud of what I've done, but there is always that part of me that says to myself "you should be farther along", "you should have tried harder" etc. I want to get to 160, that is what this comes down to. It's not really about seeing that number on the scale, the number isn't all that important to me... but it is more what it represents. I never thought I would even get to be 180, and that is why I set that as my goal when I started. I didn't truly believe in myself. But now I have to BELIEVE I can get to 160, and more importantly I need to feel like I DESERVE to be 160. So that is the goal... so I'm giving it 6 months.

Now wait a second, it's not what you think. I don't do timeline goals, and to be honest, I wouldn't care if it took a year or more to get to 160. This journey never ends and while I want to hit my goal, I am not feeling pressured to do it as quickly as possible. When I say I'm gonna give it 6 months, I mean that I am going to give it 6 months of consistent effort.

I've been busy having fun, enjoying life (and of course, working, meh) and weight loss has not been my #1 priority in well over a year. I think that is clear in the fact I have not lost any significant weight in the last year. I've been trying off and on, but weight loss was not a priority to me. When I started this journey, I was morbidly obese and to be quite frank I was miserable. So I had this overwhelming desire to focus on weight loss and get the weight off as quickly as possibly (while still doing it in a healthy way of course). Well that overwhelming desire isn't there anymore because I'm actually really happy. That is such a great thing, and I wouldn't trade it for the world... but that is the reason I have not had a fire lit under my butt to get to my final goal.

So I made a deal with myself, just for funsies. No rewards, no weight related goals, no specific workout plans or diet plans... just this:

6 months of consistent, daily effort to move closer to your goals!

That's it. Easy as pie. That means making sure I do some exercise daily and don't sit on the couch all day. Walking at work, walking Sparky, doing some strength training.

Tracking my food everyday. I used to ALWAYS do it and I miss days here and there now and I want to get back to being consistent with tracking, even if it's a bad day.

I want weight loss to be part of my job. Yes I have a full time job, but weight loss can be my secondary job. It takes a lot of work to get the weight off and I need to get focused.

So this new attitude started 2 days ago... I want to challenge myself and see what I can do in 6 months. In the grand scheme of life, 6 months is a drop in the bucket... so I'm gonna push myself and if I can get to 160 or even just in the 160's that would be awesome. But the scale definitely won't be my focus over the next 6 months. emoticon

84 pounds down, 28 to go!

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