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Thursday, February 19, 2015

Is this the trend? Because I had some pretty mighty stuff going on in January, and apparently, the Sparkworld did too. Is this how it goes- we're all fired up on New Years, but then come the end of January we're all...err...oops...um..?

I missed you guys. And I was feeling hella-guilty about not being on this site. But apparently, very few of you were on here anyway. What gives??

Disclaimer: I know some of you were busy..or gettin' busy (HELL YEAH!) and I commend you for it. emoticon

I haven't been here in January- is this the norm?

I had so much hope, so much energy for the beginning of this year, and that's gone on the wayside. But I am trying SO desperately to get back to that place. And I need your help. From December to now, I've gained weight. A lot of it. I'll update my ticker so you all can be appalled (or encourage me- don't. I'm embarrassed of myself). But I want to be real. Even if real sucks sweaty orb-shaped things that bounce. emoticon

Balls! That's what I'm talking about! I'm seriously disappointed in myself. BUT!!!

On a plus note, I did notice it this time, without a scale. Way back when, I ballooned up to close to 300 pounds and never even noticed. This time I saw it in my face.

I was all "Damn."

and then got on the scale and was all "Whaaa??"

and then I was all "Oh yeah....the Whataburger. the donut. the not working out too much business."

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*claps her imaginary clip board*


"Shay tries" take 5, 3046!

In 3...2...1...

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  • BBEAGAN
    Let's go then, get to it. You say in your profile that baby steps is what works for you, so baby step onward. No sally forth full charge, man the torpedoes, etc, just baby steps that add up and that you know work for you. Off we go!
    1957 days ago
  • STILLMENEWBODY
    When times are tough, you get tougher! Something like that...lol. Sparky, it would be wonderful if this "eating" habit would go away but it is a necessity. Learning how to work with it and use food the way it is meant to be used is so darn hard. Especially when there are all those temptations out there and many of us are FOOD ADDICTS. We wouldn't be here if we weren't. Yes, there are some people here that came to shed a few pounds and wanted support and encouragement but I believe most of us turn to food for comfort. You are not alone Sparky, we are all in this together. So, you mucked up! You won't be the first and sure as heck won't be the last.
    I think what I feel is more important here right now is that you aren't just our friend when you are losing, are being successful, and are being all upbeat, you are our friend always. You pick us up when we are down and visa versa! When we are all happy, we have a blast together. When we are not, we reach out to one another. THere is NO ON YOUR OWN here, we are with you all the way and I expect exactly that from you, lol.
    I think many of us do not realize WE are not our weight. We are so much more than that and I am reminding myself of this too, right here right now. Yes, we have a common goal...to lose weight, to feel happier and healthier. Our gifts though, are our hearts and souls, our laughter and tears, our silliness and kindness and all of those are inside this body of ours that WE NEED TO LOVE! It is a challenge but I know and you know we are worth it. So dear friend...no running away, continue to be open and honest and loving and caring and funny as hell! I am trying to be here in the long run and I expect you to be right here with me. I love you girl and I am not letting you go! Muwahhhhh
    1958 days ago
  • BUTTONPOPPER1
    Yep, I know what you mean. It's embarrassing to make passionate announcements about how I've changed and then a few weeks (days?) later slip back into some bad habits. HOWEVER, we are given so many chances to get it right! We never give up!

    And one thing I have REALLY made progress on over the years--and I see from this blog that you have, too--is not to hate myself so much for making mistakes. And I'm pretty sure this feeling is due in large part to being here at Sparkpeople, where I see that others face the same struggles that I face and that they accept me for who I am (at least in print, ha ha). No, really, this place has made me actually LIKE myself again. And I really like YOU, TOO, Sparky, and am so glad you're back with your sassy assessments of the situation!
    1959 days ago
  • SPEDED2
    emoticon so happy to see you back at it. What DESERTDREAMER said. This website is so huge because we're all in that same boat! But in this boat, we throw life lines to each other. You have lots of life lines...just holler for help...and we'll throw you a line.
    1959 days ago
  • _RAMONA
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    Attitude is still everything (and you have this licked in spades!)... progress isn't always pounds and inches, and a step back isn't always backward... sometimes it's much needed perspective.... you've made a big stride forward in noticing.

    "Optimist: Someone who figures that taking a step backward after taking a step forward isn't a disaster, it's a cha cha!" ROBERT BRAULT

    Let's dance, shall we?

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    1960 days ago
  • TWESTEN1
    Oh my - why do you make me laugh all the time? I believe this is a serious blog but it ends up making me laugh :) Oh, how I missed YOU. And yes, so glad you're back. I don't even care if you're heavier... because I know you're going to knock the weight back off - get that face back to where you like it! Yep, and you're way better than me b/c I gained weight in January and never moved my ticker. So even though I lost weight while away, I can't even claim it b/c I'm not back to December ticker weight yet! Aghhhhh. You can do this, Sparky!!! We have faith in you & we've got your back :)
    Let's rock!
    1960 days ago
  • FORZACHANDMATT
    I haven't been here as much in January and I'm kind of in the same boat as you in terms of backtracking - I think it's been this terrible winter and my mom passing for me but we all have our own issues - the key is you are here now and please don't be embarrassed - we are all here for you and each other
    1960 days ago
  • DESERTDREAMERS
    One step back, 2 forward, etc, etc.
    1960 days ago
  • A_RARE_BEAN
    See, thing is I have an appalling memory...dont know where you moved the ticker from, so really cant tell anything other than you've come really far from that 300 and are making lasting changes....so yeah not gonna think any less of you at all, I refuse to emoticon

    Life has its ups and downs and I literally do not know anyone who spends 365 days in the 'go get em' mindframe. Impossible!

    Your back which is what counts and you'll be moving in the right direction once more emoticon
    1960 days ago
  • LIVINHEALTHY9
    We are here for ya!

    And I know exactly what you are talking about. I took the wrong fork in the road a while ago and I am still trying to find my way back. It' not an easy road but we'll get there.
    Just keep walkin' emoticon emoticon
    1960 days ago
  • _BABE_
    You can do it.
    1960 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/20/2015 12:43:56 AM
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