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Another Day One

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

I was so optimistic about my New Years healthy living resolutions, but then we traveled and Jason started making sourdough bread regularly, and really I'm just full of excuses. Also, there are many feet of snow on the ground. All that inspires me to do is huddle inside with hot chocolate and knitting.

The big excuse is, I have lost my drive when it comes to all of this healthy living. It's been gone for awhile and I keep trying unsuccessfully to get it back. When I went to see a weight loss specialist a little more than a year ago he told me that based on my history of weight loss and gain since I was, oh, 13, and the high rate of morbid obesity in my family, he thought maybe we could get me to lose 30 pounds, but probably not more than that. This is a guy who makes money telling people if they follow his program and buy his stuff, they will loss ALL the weight. I told him right off the bat I want to lose 50-60 pounds (which I have done before), and he told me 30 was realistic.

Which makes me think, why even bother trying so hard? Let's just eat all the yummy unhealthy foods and sit on our bums if the end result of severely monitoring everything that goes into my mouth and working out almost every day is that I'm still fat.

I know, not a very constructive attitude. But that's where I am.

On the plus side, I went for acupuncture for the first time a little more than a week ago. I think it helped my shoulder a bit, and I know for a fact that it helped some other aches and pains I've been having so I'm willing to keep trying with the shoulder. Jason warned me a couple of weeks ago not to put all of my eggs in the acupuncture basket and I pointed out to him that this is really my last resort. After this, my option is to talk to an orthopedic surgeon and figure out if he or she can do anything for me via surgery. I really don't want surgery.

Today is the first day of Lent, so I've decided to start again with the healthy goals. I replaced my broken Fitbit so I can monitor my steps again, and I'm cutting out sugar, grains and Diet Coke. So far I have an A+ for the day, so, go me.
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  • MRTHING2000
    I've had too many day one's as well. But after day one comes day two, and is a choice from then on. The fact that you acknowledge it, want to change, and are making plans, is a good thing.
    1755 days ago
  • USMAWIFE
    emoticon i used accupunture and loved the results
    1756 days ago
  • LMB-ESQ
    Kelly, emoticon and emoticon Please stop by the swim team and say hi. We miss you!

    I really understand those "why bother" feelings! For me it's aging and perimenopause. I never realized how much those two "little" factors would affect my weight, my attitude, my body composition, really, everything. I used to think, so what? You stop having a TOM. That will be nice! Yeah, that part's nice, the rest of it? No thanks :-(

    For a long time, I ate whatever I felt like. I bought really good, high quality bread, ate lots of cheese, and didn't worry about the occasional piece of candy. (ok, more than just occasional) I gained close to 10 lbs since we all met in California. I don't know exactly what kicked me in the butt finally, but I started swimming more and getting stubborn about food. Like saying "screw mother nature, I will not allow my body to betray me."

    I recently cut out grain, sugar, and dairy, and I'm having good success. It's only been a couple of weeks, but I'm finally feeling hopeful again. My daughter is getting married in September and I want to be able to wear a slinky sexy dress without feeling like a beached whale.

    An A+ on day one is a great place to start! We've got a good habits challenge on the swim team.... want to join us? Accountability is a great thing!
    1756 days ago
  • UMBILICAL
    I've had lots of those
    1756 days ago
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