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Honesty day 23: I am a smoker

Friday, January 30, 2015

So I have never mentioned before in my prior blog entries that I am a smoker. Now I know for many this can be one of the ugliest habits or reality of their own lives but I have been a smoker now for over 10 years and it is really hard to stop. The reason I bring this up is I am now on week 4 of the couch potato to 5K training and I can tell now the smoking is starting to really hurt me.

My smoking has always been a problem for me even when I was in the military and I would barely pass my runs because I was always out of breath. The one thing I want more than anything in this life is to be a dedicated and passionate runner and that requires for me to be honest with myself. What this means is I have to choose between my cigarettes and my runs and honestly I don't think I am ready yet. Pretty much I am scared out of my mind. Smoking has been apart of my identity for years and I know quitting cold turkey will only make me relapse. It is like telling a woman if she wanted to lose weight she can never have dessert again. The suppression may last for a few days but relapse will be all the more worse.

Also another problem contributing to my habit is my family. Everyone including my husband and in-laws smoke so how am I able to avoid the urge when they light one up in front of me?

If there is anyone out there who has quit smoking please all the help will be appreciated.
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  • KNEEMAKER
    I started smoking in my early teens. Tried to quit several times. Used all the new things like Chantix, nictotine gum etc. They didn't work at all. Then I read somewhere that nicotine is only addictive for 3 days. It is very powerful though. I know and so do you. The key is when you wake up the first thing in the morning, your body is actually over 95% free of nicotine. Then you light up and you are 100% polluted again. Well I decided I would give it three days. After all you are only addicted to the very last cig you smoke. I through my cigs away and all my ash trays. That will not help if your husband smokes but get rid of the cigs you smoke. Hopefully they are different than his. Anyway I smoked for nearly 50 years and can attest that cold turkey is the best way to quit. After those three days, it didn't matter who was smoking around me. I purely do not care to ever start back. Go Cold Turkey first thing tomorrow and never look back.
    1687 days ago
  • MAWDOT35
    Thank you for commenting on my blog!
    I am not a smoker myself but I have been married to a smoker. He is now in his grave because of lung problems caused by smoking. Nicotine is powerfully addictive, and now it is very expensive. I am aware that smokers don't want to be told to stop smoking, but I pray that you will. I have a niece who quit smoking with the help of Chantix (that may not be spelled right. There is help out there. My husband quit, cold turkey, after he got asthma and COPD. You can do it! Ask the Lord to help you and believe that you can stop!
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    1687 days ago
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