Honesty day 23: I am a smoker
Friday, January 30, 2015
So I have never mentioned before in my prior blog entries that I am a smoker. Now I know for many this can be one of the ugliest habits or reality of their own lives but I have been a smoker now for over 10 years and it is really hard to stop. The reason I bring this up is I am now on week 4 of the couch potato to 5K training and I can tell now the smoking is starting to really hurt me.
My smoking has always been a problem for me even when I was in the military and I would barely pass my runs because I was always out of breath. The one thing I want more than anything in this life is to be a dedicated and passionate runner and that requires for me to be honest with myself. What this means is I have to choose between my cigarettes and my runs and honestly I don't think I am ready yet. Pretty much I am scared out of my mind. Smoking has been apart of my identity for years and I know quitting cold turkey will only make me relapse. It is like telling a woman if she wanted to lose weight she can never have dessert again. The suppression may last for a few days but relapse will be all the more worse.
Also another problem contributing to my habit is my family. Everyone including my husband and in-laws smoke so how am I able to avoid the urge when they light one up in front of me?
If there is anyone out there who has quit smoking please all the help will be appreciated.