Monday, January 05, 2015
Well 2015 has arrived and I have made myself some goals......again but, this time I have to reach them because you see my husband and I are going on a cruise come this June and I HAVE to be down at least 20 pounds by then. My goal weight for real is 125 but for the cruise I want to see the 140's at least and get back into "all" of my skinny jeans. I don't want to have to go out and buy more clothes when I have a closet overflowing with clothes.
I have one problem, I have done this over and over wanting to drop 10 or so pounds when our Florida vacation is approaching and I think all I have to do is drop at least one pound a week and I'll make it BUT, it never happens that way. This time I'm doing it differently, I started exercising on Jan. 1 at least 20 min. a day and working my way up to at least 45 min. a day 6 days a week. I am also trying not to get on the scale so often and depend on being able to zip up my jeans with ease. I don't like who I have become, inside and outside and I need to change. I know what the culprit is and that is carbs......all the bad ones because we eat healthy.....organic when we can. I hate the thought of not eating cookies and all that sweet stuff and they say you can do it but do it in moderation. Well, that just doesn't work for me because I can't just have ONE......no I want more.
I am writing this to make myself accountable to losing the 20 pounds by June because I don't want this body and the way it looks (to me) stuffing herself into her jeans and having her muffin top showing and trying to hide it with oversize shirts. I don't want to be huffing and puffing and I want myself to look good my husband but mostly for ME. I remember how I felt when I got down to 135 pounds and telling myself how good thin felt and having my jeans slide up on me without adjusting everything. I remember having a clean pair of jeans for each day of the week and then some.....now.....I have only two pairs and they really don't feel good until I've worn them for two days. Sad, sad, sad.
Well I already did my treadmill today for 25min. on a 4% incline at 2.4 mph.......one day at a time. I also have an elliptical and a stationary bike so maybe I can get up to an hour a day in time. I have to plan on getting in some strength training too. That's all for now, it's time for another glass of water.