OMG Seriously it is 2015????
Sunday, January 04, 2015
I have been away for a while and I see now what happens when you deviate from consistency. My last blog here was me at my smallest weight and now I have went right back up to almost where I started. I am embarrassed and frustrated with myself. I busted my hind end to lose that weight and it all came right back on with no problems.
2014 was a very troubling year for me. I had a crappy job that I felt like I had to stay at for 12 years. I am the sole financial provider for my family. It makes options and choices kinda limited. It never use to be this way but my husband had failing health which took him out of the work force. We are still trying to figure out what is causing him all the pain and grief. Without an actual diagnosis - he is not eligible for disability. Oh well such is life right......I was getting frustrated with not being able to make ends meet and feeling the stress of a crap job. I had no other option than to seek other employment where my existance was more viable. I was merely a whipping post there. It was always my fault regardless. I invested myself into that company - 12 long years and many 36 hour shifts to get product to customers. I am a hard worker.
So off I went to find that dream job.....and let me tell you I FOUND IT!!!!!! It a perfect scenerio.....A company that respected the management team. I fit in like I had worked there for years. I felt like I was wanted and valued...Shocking right - I know. I started there on February 24, 2014.....This new adventure brought me closer to family - oppose to 3 hours north (frozen tundra). I could not have asked for a better job....And did I mention that I damn near doubled my salary. Phew - hugh sigh of relief. I felt the financial burden slowly lifting. I could actually start playing catch up............................
...slam on the brakes........................
...........oh crap - the dreaded part of "I am not moving to the city".........................
..Yup it happened.....My husband DID NOT like the city. And yes you know what that means.....................back to the frozen tundra I go but not until I find another job.......and yes I did find another job - fortunately, it was not back at the hole.
June 2014 I was back in northern michigan. It is a good job and challenges me everyday. I am in the automotive industry and learning so much. I think it is a good fit for me and love the atmosphere....I look forward to many years there.......
Now that life has settled down with moving - I have to tighten up the straps and focus on my health.......I am investing in myself now....There will be times where I will slip but I have to remember that this is a marathon not a sprint........I WILL DO THIS!
I will continue to work toward my financial freedom (darn student loans - ugh)
I will get at least 10,000 steps each day in January and increasing 1,000 each month.
I will drop 80 lbs this year
I will figure out what is causing my husband so much pain!!!!!!!!
Ahhhhh.....I should go weigh myself after having released all of that.....Have an EPIC2015!!!!!!
This is the year of ME VS ME!!!!!