Ringing in a New Year
Monday, December 29, 2014
I have been reading all of my old blog posts and thinking about what things have changed and what things are still the same since I started on Sparkpeople in 2008. I have has good years, devastating years and moments of clarity. I am thankful that I found Sparkpeople when I did so I could find the tools I needed to make healthy changes in my life. I keep coming back to check in and us what I need when I have needed it. I love the flexibility that it has given me to take what I need from it. I have spent some time cleaning out my food groupings and updating some things because it is time to re-focus and dive in head first. I have lost 30 pounds since May and NEED to get rid of 20 more so I can schedule my last surgery.(Hopefully my last) I have gone an entire year now without surgery and it has been wonderful, but I need this last one to help me feel complete. It is only cosmetic but important for my mental state at this point. I have always had a hard relationship with how I look and after breast cancer, a double mastectomy with reconstruction-that failed... five reconstructive surgeries and uterine ablation because of the #@%^*tamoxifen I am tired of looking at myself and critiquing what my breasts should look like! My plastic surgeon is a miracle worker and has truly saved me. So 20 more pounds need to go so I am comfortable having this last surgery. Just me, my family, real food, fresh air and exercise; that's all I really along with the grace of God to ring in a New Year!