My last post of 2014
Friday, December 26, 2014
This year has been nothing but a head ache. Furnace goes out in January for a few weeks, electrical issues in kitchen and utility room, grandma in hospital for all of June, and stove goes out a week before Thanksgiving. Then there is watching my cousins little girl while keeping an eye on my grandma who shows signs of dementia (started after hospital stay).
Im home all the time and I still cant get things done. I cant stand to have someone watch me while cleaning. Or just stand there in my way. I cant yell at her because I feel bad. I only get my little cousin 2x a week from 7am to 6pm. I surly cant get stuff done then. Then there is my PCOS. I'll have a day here and there where I'm just to tired to do anything. Zero energy.
With this being all said I'm going to make things change in 2015. I need to fight through things because I want to get healthy. Changing how I eat and getting a good nights sleep will make a difference. Everything I can do just as long as I sleep good. That being said, it will be hard because my grandma likes to wake up in the middle of the night or super early and come wake me up. On average I only get 1 full night of sleep a week. She will either wake me up at 3 and or 6 in the morning. Usually 3am. She'll just walk in and stand there. Sometimes she will have a flash light with her. She never says anything and just her opening the door wakes me up.
There will be a lot of "have to" and I will make sure they become "I accomplished"