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My last post of 2014

Friday, December 26, 2014

This year has been nothing but a head ache. Furnace goes out in January for a few weeks, electrical issues in kitchen and utility room, grandma in hospital for all of June, and stove goes out a week before Thanksgiving. Then there is watching my cousins little girl while keeping an eye on my grandma who shows signs of dementia (started after hospital stay).

Im home all the time and I still cant get things done. I cant stand to have someone watch me while cleaning. Or just stand there in my way. I cant yell at her because I feel bad. I only get my little cousin 2x a week from 7am to 6pm. I surly cant get stuff done then. Then there is my PCOS. I'll have a day here and there where I'm just to tired to do anything. Zero energy.

With this being all said I'm going to make things change in 2015. I need to fight through things because I want to get healthy. Changing how I eat and getting a good nights sleep will make a difference. Everything I can do just as long as I sleep good. That being said, it will be hard because my grandma likes to wake up in the middle of the night or super early and come wake me up. On average I only get 1 full night of sleep a week. She will either wake me up at 3 and or 6 in the morning. Usually 3am. She'll just walk in and stand there. Sometimes she will have a flash light with her. She never says anything and just her opening the door wakes me up.

There will be a lot of "have to" and I will make sure they become "I accomplished"
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  • MILPAM3
    Can feel the frustration in your words. My mother (88) is beginning to repeat herself and get anxious about things. I've heard of others who got multiple phone calls throughout the night from a parent who didn't remember calling just a few minutes before.

    As far as your cousin's child, make cleaning a game and set up something easy for her to help you with, even if she isn't really cleaning per se. I used to let my kids "wash" Tupperware. Couldn't break it and the floor could be wiped up easily with a beach towel. Wash in one sink, dip to rinse in the other. Get a small feather duster and let her dust the shoe molding around the base of the walls or dust the doorknobs. Kids like to feel like they are helping.

    Hope the new year brings you peace.
    2363 days ago
  • NIKKICOLE83
    Thank God you have breath in your body! As I read this, I just wanted to tell you to breath. I can FEEL how overwhelmed you are. If I could give you a virtual hug I would. My grandmother passed away a year ago from Alzheimer's Dementia. I know it can be tiring. I remember being pregnant and my grandma coming into my room in the middle of the night, shaking me just to ask if I was Okay. She would do this a couple of times in the night. She was so concerned with me and the baby not realizing that she was keeping us from sleep! LOL. SHe also would forget that she had just checked on me.

    I miss my grandma alot. But I also feel relieved that she doesn't have to live in that mental cage of dementia. I wish you peace and calm and I hope you can find time for you. emoticon emoticon
    2363 days ago
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