An uncomfortable first...
Monday, December 15, 2014
Nothing changes if nothing changes.
So this time around something is changing! That something is me! I am HERE during the holidays!!! Usually I drop out of sight around October not to be seen again until sometime in January or February!
Last Saturday was our work Holiday Party. They go all out for this thing. Open bar, food galore and to top it all off - a desert ROOM! I attended the party. I wore a dress. I feel uncomfortable in dresses because I am not one of those young, size two girls. I found a great little black dress. I even broke down and bought a pair of heels to wear with it, although with my knee replacement, walking in heels is difficult! I stashed a pair of ballet flats in a small bag and brought them along just in case.
I must say - I felt great. I wasn't a size two - but I cut myself some slack. I have learned that while I am not where I want to be, I am comfortable with where I am today. I even hammed it up in the photo booth - which I would never have done in the past!
So I did ok with the meal, had the salmon, some potato, a small slice of beef tenderloin and the last spear of asparagus that was in the pan! I splurged with the dinner roll and butter. Not too bad! I even did ok with the drinks - I stuck with a couple diet sodas and some tonic water with a slice of lime. No alcohol, no wine, no mixed drinks..... and almost no calories!
But then came the desert room. I failed miserably there. I had a dark chocolate dipped strawberry, a little tiny tart thing with a blackberry, raspberry and blueberry on top, and a dark chocolate square that was filled with a mouse like chocolate filling. It was all decadent.
I thought I did ok - I even managed to get a 3 mile walk in with the dog before the party. I ate a light breakfast and lunch, knowing the evening was going to be a challenge.
Needless to say, Mr Scale didn't approve. This morning he registered a 3 lb weight gain. What? That would be an additional 10,500 calories! I know I didn't have that many more! I even danced a bit after dinner! really?
Sunday I got right back on track with my food and walked the dog 5 miles in the rain! Geez!
The first? I am here during the holidays. I weighed myself shortly after the holiday party and faced reality. I got back on track the next day instead of eating whatever I felt like.
I must say as much as I didn't like seeing THAT number, I am glad I did. Usually I wait until January-February and see a much larger number!
No one said this journey was going to be easy. No one said I would like it every step of the way. No one said its ok to quit. So today I am not throwing my hands up in the air and putting my head back in the sand. I am taking a step forward towards my goals.
It is not easy. But those first steps after falling down are always difficult. I can do this!