Perception is a crazy thing
Friday, December 12, 2014
Well...I think so far this month has been a wash for me. I know I can still do the 6 lbs but I have definitely made some not so great decisions along the way so I have some work cut out for me. Arby's and a Twix bar anyone? Fortunately I've been really diligent about my workouts and have been working really hard to avoid the break room which is filled with Christmas goodies!!
My goal for the weekend is to BE HEALTHY!!! Last weekend I definitely wasn't healthy and in fact I spent the majority of the weekend sitting around eating crap food. So this weekend is going to be different. I'm going to stick to my meal plan and at the most I am going to have popcorn at the movie I'm going to tomorrow night and maybe something delicious at an event I'm going to Sunday. But that is only going to happen if I am eating on plan the rest of the weekend. I already have my meals planned out and my shopping list ready for Sunday so there really isn't any reason I don't eat on plan next week.
In other news, how I perceive myself is a crazy crazy thing. I've really been struggling with believing in myself and seeing any progress for the past couple of months but especially since I had that horrible bod pod at the end of November. On Monday night I went out to a concert and I had a cute outfit on and I took a picture of myself and posted it on Facebook. I posted the picture because I recently got my hair cut and hadn't posted a picture since doing that so I wanted to have an updated picture. I thought it was an ok picture. I had a cute outfit on and my hair was curled but of course I was picking myself apart with how my bangs were out of place and how my nose was red and how my stomach hung over my pants just a little bit...but it was ok, I was still going to post it.
I really wasn't expecting the responses to that picture that I got. There were over 100 likes on my picture and about 30 comments from my friends about how great I looked and how beautiful I was and on and on. WHAT??? All I see in myself lately is failure and all of these people around me see progress and how amazing I look. My best friend texted me to let me know that two people she works with came up to her during the day and asked her about my picture and what I'd been doing because I looked so different. It seriously blew me away. And it really made me realize how negative I've been on myself lately. Obviously something that I need to work on.